From Fighting time to Walking with Time (Part Two)

From Fighting time to Walking with Time (Part Two)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

Self-Commitment Statements (continued)

I commit myself to show how – this change in the relationship to Time and Sequences of Events: consists of practical solutions that allow me to change and direct myself in reality. Previously: I would always react the moment Time and Sequences of Events do not align/meet as I anticipated. This reaction would be either in Patience/Impatience – where I would often find that, even though I say “I am Patient” – the truth is: “I am patiently, impatiently waiting”. Therefore, with keeping things practical – projecting my day into/as all possible outcomes and to simply re-align myself / re-position myself within Time and Sequences of Events: gives me the ability to decide who I am in relationship to time and in relationship to sequences of events. Herein, I direct myself within and as Time and Sequences of Events and remain stable within this directive principle. If I were to react to Time and Sequences of Events – in this separation, I cannot direct myself, time and sequences of events, because I am so busy in my Mind with emotions/feelings that I cannot see any practical solutions.

I commit myself to show how – letting go of the emotional/feeling reactions of Patience / Impatience: allows me to see practical solutions in relation to my world/reality, such as with Time and Sequences of events - where I do not need emotional/feeling reactions to be able to function / live and direct/take responsibility for who I am in relationship to my world/reality. If I had accepted and allowed myself to remain within the emotional/feeling reactions of Patience / Impatience: I would never have seen this practical solution to my relationship with Time and Sequences of Events. Therefore, I commit myself to always – when I am confronted with the unpredictable in relation to Time and Sequences of Events not aligning as I had initially predicted: to ensure I stabilize myself, having no emotional/feeling reactions - but instead find solutions so that I can direct myself in my world with time and sequences of events and not be controlled by my emotional/feeling reactions in the Mind.

I commit to assist and support myself to – when and as I in a moment find I even start going into an emotional/feeling reaction in relation to time and sequences of events, apply preventative measures as I know myself and my relationship to reactions so well already, that: the moment I accept and allow the energy to rise within my Mind and Body, it very quickly takes over. Therefore, I need to in a moment be here, be physical, stabilize myself with and as Breathing to ensure I move my awareness into and as the physical to not accept/allow myself to get caught up in the emotions/feelings and immediately move my attention to formulate a practical solution to the changes in time and sequences of events. Therefore, I commit myself to – when and as I start physically feeling the sensation of energy rising up in my solar plexus – before it becomes overwhelming, already in that moment apply breathing, speaking the commit statement aloud / aloud within myself as: “I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in this moment want to go into energy. I commit myself to breathe, stabilize myself right here, right now and establish a practical solution instead” – and then I immediately establish a solution once I in that moment released the energy and stabilized into/as the body.

I commit myself to show how such practical application in relation to Time and Sequences of Events – where we would often react, becomes an awesome test-ground to direct oneself in relation to emotions/feelings; to not give in, but instead remain stable in the physical and practise becoming the directive principle of oneself within and without. In this process, one then stop and change the tendency of the mind’s emotions/feelings to direct oneself / the situation at hand – which only produce more internal and external conflict. Whereas, with directing the emotions/feelings, stabilizing in the physical and clearing one’s awareness to assess reality / the situation effectively – here on formulate and have the power to direct one’s world/reality into liveable, practical solutions. Therefore, I commit myself to assist and support myself to utilize these moments of reactions to Time and Sequences of events to PRACTISE me stabilizing myself into the physical through stopping participation in emotions/feelings and learn what it means to actually direct oneself/one’s world / sequences of events with Awareness – instead of through emotional/feeling reactions in the Mind/Consciousness.

I commit myself to see/realise/understand that this process will take practise – but, I commit myself to dedicate myself to this practical application process and decision to stop and change my emotional/feeling reactions to time and sequences of events, as I see/realise/understand that this will also assist/support with strengthening my resolve in other endeavours of stopping/changing my relationship to emotional/feeling reactions and instead EXPRESS who I am through/as the Physical; therefore, walking the process of reaction to self-expression.

In this next post, we’ll continue with exploring how the emotional/feeling reactions of Impatience/Patience to Time and sequences of events change to Self Expression in the Physical and what Self Expression will emerge with stopping/changing such reactions.

From Fighting time to Walking with Time

From Fighting time to Walking with Time

Who I am as Patience (continued)

In the next post, we’ll continue with how to change the relationship between Time and Sequences of Events from reacting to it in Patience / Impatience – to directing self within and as Time and Sequences of Events where no emotional/feeling reactions are necessary. Then, finally – we can have a look at what Patience would mean as a Living Word that is not limited to/as the definition of Time ONLY…

Self-Commitment Statements

[In this post, we’re introducing self-commitment statements. Now that we have walked writing and self forgiveness, (which is the process of understanding and taking responsibility for a point within oneself/the mind such as the relationship between Time, Patience and Impatience and realising how this relationship compromised oneself/one’s living): we’re now walking the process of ‘preparing the road before us’ to actually apply the change in real time moments – from accepting/allowing reactions, to taking self-responsibility and changing. Therefore, the self commitment statements prepare us to implement practical change in moments when facing ourselves in/as the Mind.]

I commit myself to - when and as I already from the get-go face a moment where I have to equate sequences of events into/as time (seconds, minutes, hours) – that I assist/support myself to not equate this relationship into/as a ‘tunnel vision time-frame’, but that I consider possible/probable contingencies that could interfere with the initial projected time-frame and so prepare the way before me so that I do not go into reactions of Patience/Impatience, but walk with reality / sequences of events and any/all unpredictable outcomes / interferences.

In this, I commit myself to assist and support myself to ensure that already within this planning phase of equating sequences of events into/as time - that I do not hold any reactions within me in relation to any possible/probable contingencies, but that when I plan my day/appointment/meeting – I make sure I am clear and stand clear within all outcomes: whether it goes as planned or whether it goes unplanned.

An example:

In this process of planning my day/appointment/meeting – I take a moment and use my Imagination constructively to ‘walking my day’ within myself. I can do this in the morning before getting up – walk my day within myself as I planned and the time each event will take. In this, I make sure I walk my day practically with no reactions in relation to time and sequences of events. Then I walk the day again within myself – this time, including possible/probable contingencies and how much more time certain events would take if contingencies were to manifest. In this, as I walk the particular events with contingencies and a longer time-frame – I make sure I do not react within myself, but instead look at / look for solutions. Once this is done, I get up and walk my day as I have prepared myself.

It may so happen that contingencies do manifest and I still react, even though I had prepared myself for them – I simply then again take responsibility for reactions, walk self forgiveness within myself, stabilize myself and then look at practical solutions for the unpredictable that came about within my day.

I commit myself to – in moments where I find I am reacting in Impatience to/towards a person/appointment/meeting take a deep in-breath, speak a self-forgiveness statement within myself that is specifically in relation to the Impatience reaction and remind myself that: physical reality is not emotional, time is not emotional – therefore, reacting in emotion to reality sequences of events is not going to help the situation, let alone me. I instead make the decision to re-align myself within the relationship between time and sequences of events and so in relationship to my day, because I see/realise/understand that I would only react in this moment if I had separated myself from reality, from space and time sequences of events and I am attempting to/trying to control reality and outcomes through my Mind, with emotion – trying to force reality into/as a time-frame within and as my own Mind.

An example:

Everything in my day had gone according to plan. My day was very full and I had just enough time to fit everything in. I’m on my way to the last appointment of the day and if this appointment works out, I will be home just in time for the start of the evening responsibilities. I reach this last appointment and I find that there was a miscommunication between two bookings done at the same time – the first individual had already gone in, which means I have to wait. Normally, I would react – to the secretary and/or the person that went in before me, I would usually give a big sigh, frown, become tense as I react in anger / frustration and sit and wait in/as Impatience. Instead, even before I go into such reactions – where I notice that my body is wanting to tense up in/as an emotional reaction, I close my eyes for a moment, take a breath and sit down and utilize the time to walk some self forgiveness statements within myself instead and stabilize myself. To see/realise/understand within this that: blaming the secretary / the individual that had gone before me – is not the solution to the situation, nor is it going to help the situation. This could have happened to me as well had I been the secretary, so reacting would be pointless as I do not have all the information of what happened that caused a double-booking miscommunication. Instead, I take responsibility for my reactions – find the moment where I reacted and why. In this instance, for example: realising that I, myself, initially reacted because my day was going ‘so well’ in relation to time and sequences of events and this one moment caught me off guard a bit. So, I forgive myself and once I’m stable and re-position myself in relation to time and sequences of events – with this appointment taking longer than anticipated – I again walk my evening within myself, using my Imagination constructively and see what I can move/shift/change around to get as much done of my evening responsibilities as possible.

We’ll continue more in the next post

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 3)

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 3)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

In this next post we’ll continue the Self Forgiveness Process investigating why/how the emotion as Impatience and the feeling as Patience is not the solution to the problem of conflict we create between Time and Sequences of Events.

Self Forgiveness (continued)

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise and understand why and how the emotional and feeling reactions of Impatience and Patience are but momentary ‘band aids’ for the conflict I create within my Mind and Physical Reality in the relationship between Time and Sequences of Events. Where, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the reactions of Patience and Impatience are but a ‘response’ to the conflict I create when sequences of events do not fit into my initial projected ‘tunnel-vision’ time-frame and then I will either go into the feeling of Patience to ‘help me through it’ or I will go into the emotion of Impatience to react to the situation even more. In both instances – reacting in Patience and Impatience, I attempt/try to either control me and/or the situation to get myself through it all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how the reactions of Impatience and Patience cause me to not see the actual source of the problem, which is my internal and external relationship to time and the conflict I am creating when I am not walking equal-to and one-with sequences of events, but instead approach reality in/as separation, through the Mind, within a projected time-frame of seconds, minutes and hours. Therefore, the actual ‘problem’ is this core-relationship between Time and Sequences of Events – as long as I do not sort out this core-relationship: I will forever – when meeting this cross-road between Time and Sequences of Events: set myself up for the reactions of Impatience and/or Patience.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that Patience as a feeling-experience and Impatience as an emotional-experience is thus energetic-forces that I create through the Mind from the conflict between Time and Sequences of Events within the Mind.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ever question this relationship to Time and Sequences of Events that produce the reactions of Patience / Impatience within me – with ever considering whether there might be another way, because I have always simply followed the examples of those that have gone before me and within this believed that ‘this is the way it is’: “when waiting and you’re impatient – calm yourself down with patience” / “when you’re waiting – be patient” / “when you’re waiting and things aren’t going your way according to time – react in impatience”.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how – with looking at Time / Sequences of Events through the eyes of energetic-experiences such as Patience / Impatience: actually blinded me from seeing the actual source of the problem I am facing as the conflict I am creating between Sequences of Events and Time. That this is what we do most of the time in our Minds as well when we’re accessing emotional / feeling reactions/experiences in relation to something/someone that comes up in the Mind – we tend to miss detail, we miss seeing things for ‘what they are / as they are’ and instead see things according to how we experience ourselves –which in fact gives us only a one-dimensional view of what we’re facing. For example, with Time and Sequences of Events: I didn’t initially see that it is in fact this conflict I create in the Mind with trying to force sequences of events into Time (seconds, minutes and hours) and with this ‘forcing’ – I create friction and the friction within myself produced the emotion of Impatience and/or the Feeling of Patience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make Time (seconds, minutes and hours) more than Sequences of Events, where it’s strange how I in any way could conceive that I would be able to control reality’s sequences of events through reacting to them – especially when accessing, for example, Impatience – in a way saying to reality “well, if you will not move according to MY time-frame – then this is who I will become/how I will behave with going into Impatience and it’s YOUR fault”. In this, lol – trying to manipulate reality, in a way, to get MY WAY; not seeing, realising and understanding that – reacting is not going to change anything, but compromise me / who I am and how I behave.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always try and ‘fight’ reality with Impatience or try and ‘wait’ for reality with Patience – never walking here, WITH reality in equality and oneness and directing myself within and as it; where going into the reactions of fighting it with Impatience or waiting for it in Patience is me actually making myself powerless to my own life’s walk/movement in reality, because I am trying to fight against / wait for the very reality / sequences of events in/as which I am supposed to direct myself to create my life / walk my life in/as. Because reality / the external world is not going to create my life FOR me – nor is it going to respond to me fighting against it – I have to be the one that creates/moves me, and I cannot create my life / move me in/as this real world as long as I am approaching it with internal conflict / emotional and feeling reactions in the Mind.

In the next post, we’ll continue with how to change the relationship between Time and Sequences of Events from reacting to it in Patience / Impatience – to directing self within and as Time and Sequences of Events where no emotional/feeling reactions are necessary. Then, finally – we can have a look at what Patience would mean as a Living Word that is not limited to/as the definition of Time ONLY…