Here we’ll share practical perspectives, understandings, insights and realisations about self, the mind, the physical, the world, consciousness – and everything and all else in-between as the multi-dimensional existence that we currently consist of and exist as; and within that: practical support and assistance methods/tools/techniques of facing this existence as self in the process of standing-up and standing-together in changing ourselves to change the world.

Practically Recognizing my Own Potential (Part 2): DAY 7

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Practically Recognizing my Own Potential (Part 2): DAY 7
The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 7)
The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential


In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

So, when I started the process of forgiving myself for accepting and allowing such thoughts, for accepting and allowing the emotions to overwhelm me, for accepting and allowing myself to immediately take another’s words personally – especially with an emotional starting point…my eyes started to open to what I was in fact doing to myself and how little I could in fact trust my own thoughts and emotions when it came to listening to them and automatically believing them in this context of taking another’s words personally…instead of taking that step back, HEARING their words, considering them and then responding with commonsense.

In this post I will walk a practical example process of how I assisted and supported myself to change this point within me and my living.

A suggestion I have for those starting process, is to look for yourself in your mind / relationship with others – the ONE point you would like to start changing.
What I did for myself was start my process with the above point I walked in the previous blog and this blog now, which was ‘taking things personally’. I identified this point based on the extent of emotion that was involved within it. Meaning, I asked myself the question: “in what moments / with whom in my life do I ‘break down / become the most emotional’?” Essentially, having a look at where, when and towards whom in my current real-time life experience I accepted and allowed my own thoughts and emotions to change who and how I am the most. With asking myself this question – I identified this point of taking things personally and from there started walking my process of writing, forgiveness and corrective application. To understand WHY and how I accepted and allowed such a point to exist within me, to become AWARE of who I am in relation to the point, its consequences / compromises on me and others, to then from there assert and direct myself to CHANGE me and so my relationship with others.

What I personally found in the beginning of my process is that it was easier for me to identify emotions – the energy-experiences of the Mind. This because the ‘taking things personally’ point was so extensive within me and my relationship to others together – that my Mind moved so FAST in the beginning of my process; I often struggled to be able to stop participation in my thoughts / backchats / projections that would come up and would only realise I was already possessed within a Mind point when the emotional energy was overwhelming.
Later on in my process I came to realise that the main REASON my thoughts, memories, backchats, projections etc. would move so fast, almost too fast for me to take a step back within myself and breathe before the energy would start coming up, is because I had been fuelling this point with emotional energy for most of my life. So much so that, before I knew it – I was already participating in and believing my thoughts, falling into emotional energy and in that state – I was completely in my mind, in an emotional state. There are many things that contribute to a point within your Mind being overwhelming, but for the beginning of your process – starting with taking responsibility for emotions / being in an emotional state will assist and support greatly with taking the first step of realising and applying your potential to decide who and how you are within yourself and your living.

In terms of the research we have done throughout the years through the Portal, we have found that our Minds primarily function off of emotional and feeling energy, so if a point in the Mind contains A LOT of energy – this allows for this point to overwhelm you more easily. Therefore, as with me – when I started taking on the emotional energy connected to the ‘taking things personally’, every moment it came up and I became aware of the energy, how it made me feel, the effects of it on my physical body – I would start speaking self forgiveness within myself until I stabilize and the energy release. Then, once I was out of the energy-veil (this is what I found emotional energy does – it veils you from seeing the detail of what in the mind contributed to generating the substantial amount of energy to be able to see / investigate and introspect the thoughts I would listen to / automatically believe coming up within me) – so, once I was out of the energy-veil, I would sit with myself and write-out what exactly triggered within me, check the nature of the thoughts / backchats / projections and then the next time commit to look out for them and start practising stop participating in the thoughts etc. BEFORE the emotional energy would activate and take over.

Another reason I had found it to be easier to initially identify and forgive emotional energy in relation to a specific point, is that: if you look at where thoughts / backchats / memories etc. comes up – it manifests directly within the centre of your head. This contributes to you more easily / readily directly being caught up in the things that come up in the head – because it’s like “right in your face”, in a way. Yet, emotional energy – I have found, comes up in the solar plexus area of the physical body and because for most of your life, your attention/focus had been right in front of you/within you in the head area – you have more ‘time and space’ to assess, feel and become aware of energy activating in the solar plexus area of the body as you have to actually move yourself / your awareness to a different point / part of your body to identify / define the energy coming up.

In the next post, I will expand more on practical ways I have played with in the beginning of my process as an example of how you can start your process of taking the first step of realising your potential to decide and so change who / how you are within yourself and your living. Also, how I assisted and supported myself to slow myself down, which slowed my Mind down to be able to see and so direct myself effectively in relation to my Mind as the thoughts and emotions.

Practically Recognizing my Own Potential: DAY 6

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Practically Recognizing my Own Potential: DAY 6
The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 6)
The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential


In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

Obviously this MOMENT where you step back, access your potential/being/awareness, assess the thoughts and emotions and then CHANGE – the CHANGE PROCESS, is a process in itself as well…and this I will continue with in the next post, together with a practical example of moments during the early years of my process that were significant when I started accessing my potential, my me and started growing as the seed of potential, of awareness…eventually into and as LIFE.

When I was 18 / 19 years old – I was a VERY emotional individual. The smallest of things that I would take personally would affect me to such an extent that I could in a moment breakdown and cry. I was definitely ‘over sensitive’…without a doubt. I did not have any strength or stability within me when it came to people saying things to me / about me that I would take personally.

I had this tendency to want EVERYONE to like me and expected people to respond to me in a specific way, which lead to me always wanting to PLEASE everyone…in a strange way knowing that if I play on people’s likes / preferences and please that, they would respond to me in a good way and so really like me, which would ensure that I don’t have to face my fear of people not liking me and/or saying things towards me/about me behind my back that I would take personally. So, essentially – I had this massive fear of being disliked…I couldn’t handle it.

I remember how, throughout my life in my teenage years, if anyone said anything that I would interpret as ‘bad’ towards me / who I am / how I dress/behave – I would really take it to heart. Interestingly enough, I defined myself MORE in relation to the ‘bad’ things people would say about me behind my back / directly towards me than any of the ‘good’ things / compliments I would receive. It was as though within myself I had this ‘mind sponge’ that would automatically sponge up any and all negative / bad comments to which I would emotionally react extensively and then actually use that to try and ‘better myself’ / ‘make myself more likeable’ / ‘change myself FOR others’ to please them for them to accept me / like me more / invite me back into their group / invite me to parties etc. I was very insecure within who I was in all facets of my life and used the bad / negative comments/statements of other people to define everything of me…so much so that it was very difficult to even accept a good comment / compliment, it was like I couldn’t even believe it as I was so much more inclined to believe / accept and so use the bad / negative comments/statements…

So, over time I developed this MASSIVE fear for people not liking me, when it fact – I feared my own emotional response to not being able to handle / deal with other people’s bad / negative comments/statements about me. So, it wasn’t so much that I feared other’s words – it was in fact more that I feared the exhausting process that would be ahead of me if I did have to face another’s words, how it would emotionally affect me, how I would experience myself, how I would have to change myself…so I used the protection/defence mechanism of rather exhausting myself in a positive way, which was to just immediately PLEASE and be PERFECT in the eyes of others. Now, obviously the outflow consequence here was that: this didn’t always work…it would hit me even HARDER when I did go through the exhaustive process of pleasing and still…the bad/negative comments would come.

This was one of the first things I changed about myself within this process of walking self-forgiveness, where I started with speaking self-forgiveness within myself, silently when the thoughts and emotions would come up inside of me the moment someone would say something to me that I would interpret as being bad/negative. Like, even when I would receive ‘constructive criticism’ that would benefit me in expanding myself, in learning and bettering myself, I would take this personally, because in my thoughts I would say to myself “you failed in their eyes, you’re a disappointment, you made SUCH a mess of things, you made a HUGE mistake” – like, I started internalizing the bad / negative comments of others throughout my life into and as my OWN thoughts / backchats and emotions…
So, when I started the process of forgiving myself for accepting and allowing such thoughts, for accepting and allowing the emotions to overwhelm me, for accepting and allowing myself to immediately take another’s words personally – especially with an emotional starting point…my eyes started to open to what I was in fact doing to myself and how little I could in fact trust my own thoughts and emotions when it came to listening to them and automatically believing them in this context of taking another’s words personally…instead of taking that step back, HEARING their words, considering them and then responding with commonsense.

This I will continue with in the next post…


How Bad can what comes Naturally be?: DAY 5

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How Bad can what comes Naturally be?: DAY 5
The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 5)
The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential


In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

In the next post I will continue with the second dimension that opened up while watching The Lorax movie and then bring all the knowledge and information I shared thus far into practical living examples for you to be able to more practically comprehend how and why this process of change takes time, patience and discipline.

“How bad can I be? I'm just doing what comes naturally.”
http://www.metrolyrics.com/how-bad-can-i-be-lyrics-ed-helms-the-lorax-singers.html

In The Lorax movie, a character sings the above-mentioned song. To understand the context of the song, would really suggest watching the movie to also understand the context in which I will be placing the words of the song within this process we’re walking in relation to Utmost Potential.

The words / statement within the song that stood out for me was: “How bad can I be? I'm just doing what comes naturally.”
I looked at myself in the beginning of my process and did not for myself see any ‘reason’ to personally change. Even though my mind and my life was difficult / challenging – I in NO way had any IDEA the extent to which ‘who I am’ in thought, word and deed was in fact affecting and so creating my relationship to my physical body and so with people in general. In my life, I felt like a leaf being blown into any and all directions – so, I was directionless, irresponsible, powerless and above-all…I felt helpless, as though who I was / everything that I experienced was simply in the hands of ‘fate’…I was merely just ‘walking my life, walking me and that’s all there is to it’. So, to me – who/how I was: this is who/how I’ve always been…“naturally”. Meaning, it was not only in my ‘present’ – when I was 18 / 19 years old that I felt directionless, irresponsible, powerless and helpless, but looking back into my past – I was in fact making the statement that I am powerless / helpless to change myself / my life in any way, because I was not to blame for who I had become, how I was living and what I was doing with my life up to that point. It was the feeling of standing on a tight-rope – me standing in the centre, my past not being ‘my fault’ and my future also then not being ‘my fault / my responsibility’ – because who/how I was in the present, ‘I was not responsible for’ and because I felt powerless, helpless in my relationship to the past, I so felt this way n the present and so would feel this way about my future.

So, because of these dimensions…and obviously so much more, I simply accepted and believed that who I am is my ‘fate’, ‘cemented’…like, ‘this is it’. But, when I was introduced to the process of writing, self forgiveness – I initially didn’t write as much, but immediately started living it, applying it – in moments assessing my thoughts / emotions, taking that step back, applying forgiveness within myself / out loud and then changing myself…slowly but surely a ‘fire’ started rising within me…like, I started wanting more for myself, I started wanting more for myself out of life, I wanted to better myself in who I am within thought, word and deed…I actually wanted the responsibility for who/how I was in thought, word and deed. Because, with walking my process – I started empowering myself with realising I can change and with change – affect / influence and so direct my relationships with others and my life in general. Realising, knowing and living this…is and has been awesome.

And so, within my process – obviously with walking writing, self forgiveness and then the actual self change in moments and from there when the Portalling opened – I realised that who / how I was…was NOT ‘Natural’, it was never a ‘this is it’, cemented, ‘lost-in-the-hands-of-fate’ situation – but that we only think/believe it’s ‘natural’, because it apparently ‘comes naturally’ when you look at how thoughts and emotions comes up within you. When in fact, it doesn’t happen ‘naturally’ – your thoughts and emotions are programmed into an automated SYSTEM as the Mind Consciousness System that functions based on external and internal stimuli that activates the input-output mechanism, which determines accordingly who you are in moments and what you live. So, this is also what we do through the Portalling with interviews available on EQAFE, through DIP Lite, through DIP Pro: showing you what your MIND in fact is, how your REAL NATURAL AWARENESS had been suppressed / repressed and how to access and eventually LIVE your REAL SELF.

Therefore, the point I’d like to make within this post is to primarily understand, as I have and so many others – that: who/what you are now in relation to the Mind is not ‘natural’…but ‘automated’; we’ve become organic robots instead of LIVING BEINGS and for anyone that can relate to this experience of yourself, where you can’t even conceive of self change and the empowerment that self-responsibility can bring to you within yourself and your life – I would really suggest investigating Desteni, EQAFE, DIP Lite and DIP Pro…where you can SHOW YOURSELF and so SEE for YOURSELF how what you have always believed yourself to be…was never natural / real / true and that you can realise so much more about yourself and life if you’d start becoming the SEED of SELF-POTENTIAL.

Will continue more in the next post…