The Perfection of a Moment
As mentioned in
the previous post, I from here starting writing out – daily, the most common
self judgments I accepted and allowed to entertain and participate in within my
Mind. From here, I started redefining the self judgments into self acceptance.
Together with this, I started a process of redefining self perfection more into
something real, something tangible that assisted and supported me in my process
through making mistakes and learning from them. This I will continue with in
posts to come.
When it comes to redefining yourself within words –
the key is to find an ‘anchor point’ within your everyday life that serves as
the initial platform within and as which you practise the redefined-living of
yourself within and as the word. For example, with me: I started changing the
living definition of myself when it came to the word ‘perfection’ in the context
of making mistakes. Once I became more comfortable and natural in living the
word perfection in this one context – I started expanding myself, my world in a
way of seeing where else, in what moments in my everyday life can I redefine
and live the word perfection.
But, initially – it assists and supports to start
with ONE POINT within yourself and your life to get a ‘feel’ for the process
involved with redefining yourself in and as a word. Once you get through the
anchor point – really visibly change in who you are in thought, word and deed
in a proven way for yourself and others: you will find that the next points /
dimensions in yourself / your life you’d like to change will be much easier,
because you have now developed that trust and knowing within yourself when it
comes to how to redefine and live yourself within and as a specific word.
Getting back to my anchor point, starting my process
of redefining myself within and as perfection, which started with my experience
in moments of making a mistake:
Within the experience and reflection of making a
mistake, I would during this process forgive the judgments and change them into
acceptance, gifting me the opportunity within myself to be able to take a step
back and look at what I need to refine, adjust, specify and re-align within
myself. To so be able to look at the mistake, learn from it, grow through it
and also become a living example of others to be able to effectively learn
through and from me based on my effectiveness of learning from and through the
mistake. Then, I would equally start living my redefinition of the word
perfection, which was: “To walk the process of writing, forgiveness and change
within awareness – with the specificity, detail and depth of self honesty and
awareness that is here as me in THAT MOMENT / point in time in my process.”
Essentially, perfection for me became something
personal and intimate in my process walking from consciousness to awareness.
This definition assisted and supported me in a way of not so easily / readily
accepting and allowing judgments or accepting and allowing the fear of not
being perfect, because I would remind myself that: I am me. I am here. I will
strive to in this moment, this experience – be as specific, detailed and
in-depth with myself as I am honestly, within my awareness able to. To assist
and support me and so others.
Therefore, perfection was not defined in relation to
others or anything external about myself – but rooted within WHO I AM able to
be, the POTENTIAL I am able to be in moments and experiences within myself and
my life.
In this, perfection then also became my personal challenge,
where: I wouldn’t only ‘just be specific, in-depth and detailed’ but PUSH
MYSELF to be as specific, in-depth and detailed as possible. Always REMEMBERING
and REMINDING myself I am in a CONSTANT, CONTINUOUS journey of LEARNING in this
lifetime within myself and my life. To ACCEPT mistakes EQUALLY as I would
accept MYSELF! Acceptance when it came to mistakes assisted and supported me to
drop this polarity of judgment and perfectionism, as well as the fear and
desire inner-conflict I existed in for much of my life.
This again, the beauty of redefining words and so
redefining yourself. From perfection being both a fear and desire, catapulting me
into the consequences of self judgment: I transformed me and so the word
perfection for me in a way that assisted and supported me within my personal
process. Where the word and so my living experience of it became a support for
me, rather than my own self-destructive demise that I accepted and allowed.
I’ll continue more in posts to come
