Dependable: Enabling my self, my purpose
“What would it mean to enable myself, the living pen as the
process of living the word dependable?” “What would it practically mean for me,
my relationship with who I am in thought, word and deed to live the word
‘dependable’ and what role does purpose play within this all?”
I have looked at my relationship to thinking, speaking and
acting. These three foundations serve as a ‘platform’ within and as which I
stand, gifting me with the ability to respond to myself, others and my
environment. However, what I have not done (in the beginning, before my process
started) is analyse, asses or question ‘who I am’ when it comes to thought,
word and deed and my response-ability within moments when I am exposed to my
own thoughts, own words and own deeds. Whereby, I was a ‘living pen’ - not
writing, through living - me, my relationships and my life with awareness. I
was not CREATING. I have been a ‘living pen’ with purpose always existent
within and as me if only I ENABLED my awareness and my relationship within who
I am in thought, word and deed. It’s like, I was just ‘waiting’ to utilise everything
I have within me, available within me to bring myself to purpose, to create the
utmost potential of who and how I can be and live through my thoughts, words
and deeds.
Making this realisation / understanding more practical /
tangible: Throughout my process, I transformed my relationship to thoughts in a
way of not blindly following them anymore, but first taking a breath and a step
back and asking if the nature of my thoughts / experiences emerging within me
is the awareness, self and potential I want to live / be / embody in any given
moment? From where I would then decide to live a WORD with awareness and embody
that word into a living expression of me, that will so transform my words and behaviour
and in so doing, transform my relationship with others and my general life
experience.
I found that my thoughts / inner experiences defined my
words and behaviour and so created my relationships, defined my decisions and
choices and filtered out into the experience of my life. Once I started
redefining my relationship to who I am in thoughts, words and deeds, I started
my process of setting me to PURPOSE, ENABLING thus myself in being able to
CREATE ME through changing my relationship with thoughts, words and deeds with
awareness.
So, exactly as you would take a pen and start writing /
drawing – your hand the directive principle, your self writing / drawing with
AWARENESS: you bring your SELF into creation. Same with our thoughts, words and
deeds: we, with our SELF AWARENESS need to utilise our thoughts, words and
deeds by DIRECTING ourselves within and as them into a CREATION, a STORY worth
living.
To those who love writing / drawing / painting: the best
moment is when you have that blank page before you and you have the DECISION to
EXPRESS the UTMOST of yourself from the moment you start writing / drawing /
painting.
This is exactly the same for the MOMENTS we have in everyday
life when we have a DECISION before us the moment we recognise the fact that
our thoughts and inner experiences are not reflecting our potential: to make
the decision to CHANGE, to LIVE in thought word and deed the WORD you’re going
to WRITE / LIVE in THAT MOMENT.
I will continue in the next post with more practical
examples…
