I’m Tired of Fighting
We fight with our own thoughts
We fight against the inner
conflict we experience when emotions seem to get the upper hand inside
ourselves and we’re fraught in moments with what seems to be a never-ending
chaos
We fight with ourselves to act normal
– be presentable, accepted, not judged
We fight when we judge ourselves
We fight just to get through
another day
We fight with ourselves in the
mornings to wake up
We fight with ourselves in the
evening to try and rest
We fight with money
We fight with survival
We fight with others in our
imaginations or through our actions / words
We even fight when we suppress –
subtly manipulating ourselves or others out of spite
We feel like we have to fight
sometimes to be heard or seen
We feel like we have to fight
against the world / people / systems to help reach out to those who can’t help
themselves – such as reaching out for funding, donations, food, water,
education, healthcare and other basic needs
We fight with our own bodies
We fight with the nature /
experience of our present lives – never happy / satisfied with who we are, why
we are, where we are
We fight for a better self / mind
/ body
We fight against other’s beliefs,
opinions, ideas, religions, spiritualities, views
We fight with our own memories
We fight with our imaginations /
fantasies
We fight to survive
We fight to live
We fight to be loved / accepted /
cherished, cared for, noticed
We fight when we do our best to
stand up for others who can’t in moments for themselves, when most around you
want to fight / attack
We fight when we believe the
solution we see to things is the ONLY way and not willing to incorporate or
include others’ insights and perspectives to expand on solutions even more
We fight to try and make a
difference to so many problems in this world – when you have to come against
the money system, politics, governments, laws, officials
We fight to try and make a
difference in another’s person’s life who refuses to help themselves / change
for the better of not only themselves but others as well
We fight with our own
suppressions
We fight through addictions /
habitual behaviour patterns we know are compromising ourselves and others on
some level or another
We fight for change
We fight to change
We fight the very food we eat
We fight the water we drink
We fight healthcare systems
We fight money systems
We fight against political
systems
We fight against education
systems
We fight against governments
We fight those who have money
We fight those who don’t have
money
We fight with ourselves when we
make a mistake
We fight with others when they
make mistakes…
…the list can go on when you
start seeing and understanding this nature of fighting that exists within us
and our lives.
For today’s post – I would like each
one to realise and observe how much and how often this nature of ‘fighting’ comes
through within yourself, towards yourself, towards others and life in general.
It happens so much and so often…it’s shocking to realise for yourself the
extent to which we still accept and allow this in everyday life.
I have given examples above
regarding this nature of fighting. To specify more: this nature / experience of
fighting can come through in subtle and intense ways inside yourself, towards
others and life in general. It’s the experience in moments where your emotions
intensify, your body becomes rigid / tense and your entire being / presence
goes into a state of ‘attack or defence’. These moments actually happen more
throughout your day than you realise – leading to a mental and physical exhaustion
we are barely aware of, but can create many different outflow consequences.
So, for this post: have a look at
the nature of fighting in the small / subtle moments of everyday life. To
become aware of the extent this ‘fighting experience’ exists within you,
because in the next post we’ll have a look at how this often leads to a moment
within yourself where you say: “I’m tired of fighting” / “I don’t want to fight
anymore” / “Is there another way”? I have reached this point within myself and
my process many times when I accepted and allowed this ‘nature of fighting’
within me to take control / overwhelm my thoughts and emotional experiences –
reaching a point of mental and physical exhaustion that this ‘fighting
experience’ within me has created. But, it also opened my eyes to realising the
various ways this ‘fighting’ has come to manifest on a collective and global
scale within humanity and why my eyes were previously veiled from seeing the
extent of the problem when it comes to this dimension of ‘fighting’ that exists
within us all in one way or another.
I will in the next post share how
I am and have been dealing with / directing this ‘fighting’ that I’ve become
aware of within me – sharing the nature and design of it within the mind /
consciousness and how to support yourself to release your being from such a
state of living and experience. More importantly: why it is pivotal to change
this nature within yourself to be able to support others to change as well – so
that we stop creating and living in a world defined by ‘fighting to live’ and
start creating and living in a world defined by reason and purpose and LIVE,
for self and all of existence as well.
2 comments:
Thank you Sunette, this made me understand with more clarity why I had breakdown and burnout this year
Tambien he tenido mis momentos de rechazo hacia esa lucha entre mi mente y el ser que soy como sustancia de vida. Pero ya las luchas son menos frecuentes debido a estoy mas alerta no solo con el respiro sino con la aplicacion del PERDON Y CORRECCION, con HONESTIDAD como mi misma . Y eso se ha convertido en un balsamo para mi. Gracias Susan. !FELIZ NAVIDAD !
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