The Paths that Lead us…(Part Two)
In the next post –
I’ll continue with “the paths that lead us” – how from one perspective, we’ll
take paths in our lives that’ll lead us into a particular direction, but at the
same time, you can lead yourself through that path based on who you are and how
you approach it…
This particular trip from home to our destination I have
travelled many times before – with all the previous times being a pretty
straightforward trip, therefore I projected that this trip would be no
different to the previous times cause each and every single time it went
problem-free. Boy, was I proven wrong when it comes to referencing memories and
then facing real time in reality!
It’s interesting because I have faced such things many times
before – where it’s been proven to me to not project, to walk
life in the present, expect the unexpended, be prepared for anything and
everything…yet, lol – in this instance I realised that I hadn’t yet effectively
reminded myself of how unpredictable life can be when it comes to the area of
travelling. I have managed to correct this in my everyday life – the day-to-day
living, but hadn’t been on a trip in years, so the moment passed me by as the
projections of the trip / the memories of past trips automatically came up as
it did all those years ago, and so seemingly ‘naturally’ trusted my past
references / memories of how the trip is going to turn out. I have found it was
this one singular starting point that lead to the domino-effects of the experience
inside myself during the trip.
What was interesting when I traced back the moment of what
caused the initial experiences inside myself when the trip went differently to
what I initially expected it would: I found the mind can be so subtle, the
projections of how the trip was going to go was not that intense, there was no
distinct energy / excitement linked to the projections, it was more – the moment
the projections came up of how the trip was going to go, I experienced a ‘trust’,
an ‘ordinariness’ as though a part of me was simply going “ah, okay, this is
how the trip is going to go – all good”. So, I realised I went into a “going
with the flow” experience, that everything will be “smooth sailing”…
Then, the next significant moment, which is where the domino
effects started – was the moment we heard there was an accident on the highway and
we got directed via the alternate route, so this moment was like a rock coming
at me as I was “going with the flow / smooth sailing” in my memories /
projections of how the trip was going to go and it shook me inside myself –
with knowing the added time / travelling that was before us. Then from there,
lol – it was as though rock after rock as event after event came in the way –
me still holding onto the expectancy of it going smooth sailing…which didn’t
happen.
So, as we were driving and the rocks (real events in reality
we in no way could have predicted / anticipated) kept on piling up in front of
us on our way to the destination – I stopped for a moment inside myself, took a
breath and walked back in time to have a look at where I shifted inside myself
and how I created this experience inside myself. Because what ‘woke me up’
inside myself in a way was the moment the
thought came of “let’s just turn around and go back” – because this is not
how I usually handle things whenever there is difficulty / challenge – yes, I
may go
through the ups and downs that’s involved, but I will not give up and
always find a way. So, the moment that thought came up I knew “uh oh, here’s
emotion involved – the nature of the thought is giving up / giving in, how’d I
create this?”
With knowing myself through the years of process I have
walked - I knew I’d gone into a ‘negative experience’ inside myself so had to have
somewhere started off in a ‘positive experience’ (this relationship between the
mind’s negative, positive and neutral dynamics in walked within interviews in EQAFE – specifically the Quantum Mind
Self Awareness Series). This is how I traced it back to the moment I went
into the projections / memories before the trip – even though the experience of
‘going with the flow’ was SO SUBTLE, barely recognisable even by myself in that
moment, it was still me shifting into a positive experience and expecting a
positive experience from the overall trip. Then the moment reality came around
when we got rerouted…lol, my positive smooth sailing experience got ROCKED,
literally, shaking me from the positive to the negative.
So, while driving in the car – used the extra time and
travelling, walked
self forgiveness on everything I saw / realised, from the positive moment
through into the negative, released the energy and grounded myself making the
decision of who I am in relation to the unexpected, the
unpredictable, so that whatever rock comes my way – I stand before it,
assess it and direct myself through it, around it or over it. Rather than
holding onto a projection / memory and positive experience expectation
- with every time a rock / unexpected event coming shaking me / my experience
into a negative; because I am going to have to go through/over/around that rock
/ unexpected event anyway – whether I’m emotional about it or grounded…so, I
determine and decide the experience of myself, who I am / will be. I’d much rather
be grounded / stable when facing unexpected events than accepting and allowing
myself to be emotional, constantly shifting from positive to negative experiences
in thoughts / projections. In so doing – missing an opportunity for self
realisation and self expansion that can emerge by rather asking myself “what
can I learn about myself from this unexpected event?”
Will continue more in the next post – expanding on how
walking the forgiveness and deciding who I am changed the rest of the trip /
experience for myself.
