When I want to Sleep my problems away – yet my problems keep
me Awake…
Then continue with
point 2. – the second dimension I experienced contributing to sleepless and
restless nights, which is when you have stressful / emotional thoughts and
experiences within you creating the inner conflict of alertness and exhaustion;
also how to assist and support yourself when facing such experiences within
you.
Many use sleep as an escape mechanism…especially when it
comes to having to wake up in the mornings and you really just don’t want to,
because everything of you knows what is ahead when you open your eyes and walk
into the day: having to deal with yourself, others and life. What I mean with
having to deal with yourself: is the non-stop inner conflict you can be
presented with within your thoughts and emotions, having to deal with your
inner reality. This is most difficult at times when you don’t have the tools /
guidance when it comes to directing your thoughts and emotions. I have personally
found that: if my inner reality is in chaos / conflict – it makes it
exceptionally difficult / challenging to deal with the unpredictable we walk
into when it comes to everyday life, which creates a third dimension of
conflict: the conflict between the inner and the outer.
1st Dimension of conflict: Inner conflict
This is when you have things going on inside yourself in relation
to yourself, others / life itself that keeps you occupied in your thoughts and
emotions.
2nd Dimension of conflict: Outer conflict
This happens as you walk your day and things happen /
transpire in everyday life you didn’t expect which tends to ADD to the already
existent inner conflict within you
3rd Dimension of conflict:
This is when there’s a ‘clash’ of sorts between your inner
reality and outer reality – where, as you’re dealing with things inside
yourself, more things happen outside yourself with relationships / situations.
So as you’re essentially walking pre-existent inner conflict within yourself,
you’re also at the same time met with outer conflict with things happening in
moments throughout your day. This is what makes it so the more challenging /
difficult to direct your outer world, because your inner world is also not
being directed. This leads to much stress and anxiety as you’re essentially
living in chaos with accepting and allowing such a life within and without.
I realised that I can’t predict the outcome of each day. The
only power I have is in MOMENTS throughout my day AS and WHEN things happen.
However, I’ve realised that: as long as I have problems / issues inside myself
I am not dealing with / directing it tends to disempower me in MOMENTS throughout
my day, because then - instead of DIRECTING or solving conflicts / problems
that I’m met with throughout my day, I tend to project / exert my own personal
issues / problems / inner conflicts onto / towards things I walk into /
experience in everyday life. Therefore, I cannot control the conflicts /
problems I face in everyday life – but I can take response-ability (the ability
to respond as becoming the directive principle) of my own mind, my own thoughts
and emotions within me.
So, by taking my power in my relationship with my own mind –
resolving the INNER conflicts I face / experience, I can so walk my everyday
life experience in such a way where I can ensure that my own inner conflicts
are not projected / exerted onto / towards the unexpected / unpredictable I may
face in everyday life. Walking my everyday life experience with more stability
and clarity within myself, empowering myself to in moments – rather than
projecting/exerting emotions / reactions onto something / someone – assess the
person/people and situations much better, to stand within the self empowered
position of always finding /creating
solutions, rather than creating even more conflict / chaos.
We don’t realise that this is what we do / accept / allow if
we continue with inner conflict / chaos – we become / embody this chaos within
and it start filtering through our words and actions, especially in moments
where we should be standing to find solutions, we instead ADD to problems /
conflict / chaos in everyday life. Therefore, with you assisting and supporting
yourself to transform your relationship with inner conflict / chaos to sorting
it out, dealing with things you’re going through and directing it – you embody
such a nature / presence within and as yourself and it will equally start
filtering into your outside world life experiences. Where, instead of adding to
problems / conflicts, you will be able to stand in such a way so as to always
direct it, find solutions, resolve matters.
In the next post I will continue with how these three
dimensions of conflict contributes to sleepless, restless nights and the irony
of wanting to use sleep as an escape mechanism…yet, you’ll find your worries,
fears and problems follow you to sleep and tends to do the exact opposite by keeping
you awake!
