From Fighting time to Walking with Time
Who I am as Patience (continued)
In the next post,
we’ll continue with how to change the relationship between Time and Sequences
of Events from reacting to it in Patience / Impatience – to directing self
within and as Time and Sequences of Events where no emotional/feeling reactions
are necessary. Then, finally – we can have a look at what Patience would mean
as a Living Word that is not limited to/as the definition of Time ONLY…
Self-Commitment
Statements
[In this post, we’re
introducing self-commitment statements. Now that we have walked writing and
self forgiveness, (which is the process of understanding and taking
responsibility for a point within oneself/the mind such as the relationship
between Time, Patience and Impatience and realising how this relationship
compromised oneself/one’s living): we’re now walking the process of ‘preparing
the road before us’ to actually apply the change in real time moments – from accepting/allowing
reactions, to taking self-responsibility and changing. Therefore, the self
commitment statements prepare us to implement practical change in moments when
facing ourselves in/as the Mind.]
I commit myself to - when and as I already from the get-go
face a moment where I have to equate sequences of events into/as time (seconds,
minutes, hours) – that I assist/support
myself to not equate this relationship into/as a ‘tunnel vision time-frame’,
but that I consider possible/probable contingencies that could interfere with
the initial projected time-frame and so prepare the way before me so that I do
not go into reactions of Patience/Impatience, but walk with reality / sequences
of events and any/all unpredictable outcomes / interferences.
In this, I commit myself to assist and support myself to
ensure that already within this planning phase of equating sequences of events
into/as time - that I do not hold any reactions within me in relation to any
possible/probable contingencies, but that when I plan my
day/appointment/meeting – I make sure I am clear and stand clear within all
outcomes: whether it goes as planned or whether it goes unplanned.
An example:
In this process of
planning my day/appointment/meeting – I take a moment and use my Imagination
constructively to ‘walking my day’ within myself. I can do this in the
morning before getting up – walk my day within myself as I planned and the time
each event will take. In this, I make sure I walk my day practically with no
reactions in relation to time and sequences of events. Then I walk the day
again within myself – this time, including possible/probable contingencies and
how much more time certain events would take if contingencies were to manifest.
In this, as I walk the particular events with contingencies and a longer
time-frame – I make sure I do not react within myself, but instead look at /
look for solutions. Once this is done, I get up and walk my day as I have
prepared myself.
It may so happen that
contingencies do manifest and I still react, even though I had prepared myself
for them – I simply then again take responsibility for reactions, walk self
forgiveness within myself, stabilize myself and then look at practical
solutions for the unpredictable that came about within my day.
I commit myself to – in moments where I find I am reacting
in Impatience to/towards a person/appointment/meeting take a deep in-breath,
speak a self-forgiveness
statement within myself that is specifically in relation to the Impatience
reaction and remind myself that: physical reality is not emotional, time is not
emotional – therefore, reacting in emotion to reality sequences of events is
not going to help the situation, let alone me. I instead make the decision to
re-align myself within the relationship between time and sequences of events
and so in relationship to my day, because I see/realise/understand that I would
only react in this moment if I had separated myself from reality, from space
and time sequences of events and I am attempting to/trying to control reality
and outcomes through my Mind, with emotion – trying to force reality into/as a
time-frame within and as my own Mind.
An example:
Everything in my day
had gone according to plan. My day was very full and I had just enough time to
fit everything in. I’m on my way to the last appointment of the day and if this
appointment works out, I will be home just in time for the start of the evening
responsibilities. I reach this last appointment and I find that there was a
miscommunication between two bookings done at the same time – the first individual
had already gone in, which means I have to wait. Normally, I would react – to
the secretary and/or the person that went in before me, I would usually give a
big sigh, frown, become tense as I react in anger / frustration and sit and
wait in/as Impatience. Instead, even before I go into such reactions – where I
notice that my body is wanting to tense up in/as an emotional reaction, I close
my eyes for a moment, take a breath and sit down and utilize the time to walk
some self forgiveness statements within myself instead and stabilize myself. To
see/realise/understand within this that: blaming the secretary / the individual
that had gone before me – is not the solution to the situation, nor is it going
to help the situation. This could have happened to me as well had I been the
secretary, so reacting would be pointless as I do not have all the information
of what happened that caused a double-booking miscommunication. Instead, I take
responsibility for my reactions – find the moment where I reacted and why.
In this instance, for example: realising that I, myself, initially reacted
because my day was going ‘so well’ in relation to time and sequences of events
and this one moment caught me off guard a bit. So, I forgive myself and once
I’m stable and re-position myself in relation to time and sequences of events –
with this appointment taking longer than anticipated – I again walk my evening
within myself, using my Imagination constructively and see what I can
move/shift/change around to get as much done of my evening responsibilities as
possible.
We’ll continue more in the next post
