My Relationship with Emotions (Part Two)
Quantum Time and Physical Space-Time Equilibrium (continued)
Who I am as Patience (continued)
In the next post we’ll
start with our relationship to emotional/feeling energy – start with seeing,
realising and understanding how we’ve “fallen into a relationship” with
emotional/feeling energy, without knowing that we can in fact decide, direct
and establish who/how we are in relation to emotional/feeling energy of the
Mind/Consciousness. Also, why it is important to in fact UNDERSTAND what
emotional/feeling energy is and how we have consequentially been using/abusing
it – simply because we have not taken the responsibility in/as our
Self-Awareness for who we are and how/what we live within ourselves.
Having a look again at the moment you face the emotional
experience of impatience, you can also practically do this for yourself –
walk a day in your life / a week / a month and observe yourself when becoming
impatient: what thoughts arise and how the emotion affects your physical body.
Most importantly – observe yourself in the moment you DECIDE to become
impatient.
Many who have recent memories of impatience, may not be able
to relate to ‘the moment of Decision’ with becoming impatient…and you won’t,
because our relationship to / with emotions,
such as impatience, have been an ‘automatic response-pattern’ that we have
programmed into our Consciousness from a decision made a LONG time ago, so long
ago – you cannot even remember when you made the decision. It could have been
done by observing how your parents respond to time / schedules / appointments
and/or friends, or from watching a movie or reading a book. You can ‘play’ with
this for yourself and see who you in your family / past and/or from where have
you observed such a response-pattern in your life and accordingly made a
decision through acceptance that “this is the way I am supposed to be / respond”
and/or “this is the way things are”. From that moment, now a memory inside your
mind and body – you have come to automatically respond to time / schedules /
appointments and the unpredictable nature of space-time reality with
impatience.
It is fascinating to walk the Mind Construct Process within
the Desteni I Process Course, because
herein – you learn how to walk through your own Mind to identify how memories
have come to define you and so most of your automatic response / reaction
patterns to your own Mind / Relationships and Life in general. Personally, I
have found that this was one of the main things that contributed to experience
resistance with walking Mind Constructs – walking through my Mind, my Memories:
the fact that so much of who I had become, was not “me”, but a ‘patchwork’ / ‘tapestry’
of information / data and memories of what I copied / imitated from others and
throughout my life accepted as “me” – never questioning, really, where so much
of my thoughts / reactions and behaviours that I could see was compromising
myself and my life was really coming from. So, in this – you really face the
question “who am I”, “how am I” and “why am I”; which is something we tend to
fear because we so desperately want to believe that we’re ‘unique’ / ‘individual’
/ ‘special’…‘my
own ME’; when in fact: you’re not and never have been. It’s only when you
start introspecting the thoughts, reactions and the memories you accepted that
shaped / formed your response-patterns / self-experience and then actually
start changing your decision within ‘who am I, how am I and why am I’ that your
potential / individual self expression emerge for the first time.
For example – having a look at the reaction of Impatience: this
is something most do when it comes to the relationship
with time and unpredictability in this reality; having similar thoughts and
so a similar emotional response. Whereas, if you’d give yourself the
opportunity to walk self-forgiveness in the moment when you find the thoughts
and emotions that relate to impatience comes up, and in that moment set yourself free to
decide who you are, how you are and why you are – herein you for the first time
in fact give yourself the opportunity to DECIDE with awareness, and especially
within the principle of what’s best for all. Because, when you’re reacting with
Impatience – you in fact only think about yourself, how YOU feel / experience
yourself that you then embody. Whereas, if you’d for a moment forgive the
thoughts and emotions, breathe, decide to stabilize yourself and consider the
reality of the moment, the appointments / time / schedule and others and their
lives that are involved – you can approach the moment / situation with
awareness, have access to more information and so from here decide on a plan / approach
as a practical solution.
What you can consider looking at for yourself is: you know
how, why and who you’re going to be if you accept / allow yourself to react in
impatience as you’ve walked down this road inside your own mind many times
before. However, if you’d give yourself this opportunity to release yourself
from the automatic response-pattern and instead assess the moment, yourself and
others practically, realistically within commonsense and stability – it is
fascinating how surprising the entire moment and experience can be/become; even
what you can learn about yourself.
I will continue more in the next post explaining / sharing
the process of how emotional reactions / response-patterns change / transform
to self-expression; and how this process of walking from the Quantum Time
dimensions of Consciousness into and as the equilibrium of Space
and Time in the Physical – assist and support with understanding what it
means to Live Patience.
