Dependable
I played with the sounding of the word Dependable and the
following opened up: De(The) – Pen – Able. Playing with the sounding of words
is a way of redefining your relationship to the word and so the relationship
with yourself. It’s a method used to see what you can learn from a word,
through a word and so learn about yourself.
The words ‘The Pen Able’ stood out for me. From there, it
opened up into ‘Enabling the Pen’. Once you enable a pen, a working pen – it is
and becomes an dependable source used to assist and support you to write, to
create, to express, to share, to communicate. We enable the pen, its ‘purpose’
by taking it in our hands and starting writing / drawing. We oftentimes think /
believe a pen has no purpose until we use it. However, the pen’s very EXISTENCE
is its purpose in the sense of BEING ABLE to write / draw. We SHARE and
EXPERIENCE the pen’s purpose the moment we write with it / draw with it – the moment
we make the pen A PART of OUR MOMENT, our world, our expression, our
creativity.
From here I looked at the relationship between dependability
and purpose. Looking at the question “who I am when it comes to the word
dependable and living / making this word a part of me and my everyday life?” Interestingly
enough, what first came up within me was everyone else in my life - wanting to
be dependable for others. However, I realised this does not answer the above
question. I must look at what being dependable means for ME first and foremost.
How can I learn to understand what this word means for me in who I am when it
comes to my relationship with me. Because, if I cannot live this word in my
relationship with me – then living ‘dependable’ FOR OTHERS is going to be
existent within the dimension of separation.
Looking at myself, I realised through my thoughts, words and
deeds in moments in everyday life – I am a Pen. I write / draw as to create /
express / communicate / behave etc. who I am as well as the story / painting of
my life from one day to the next and into the future. Here, I drew an analogy
between myself as a living being and the pen – both writing / drawing, bringing
something new into creation / manifestation. From here, drawing the lines
through when it comes to dependability and purpose – asking myself the questions:
“What would it mean to enable myself, the living pen as the process of living
the word dependable?” Then, “what would it practically mean for me, my
relationship with who I am in thought, word and deed to live the word ‘dependable’
and what role does purpose play within this all?”
I will continue in the next post…
