The Perfection of a Moment

The Perfection of a Moment

As mentioned in the previous post, I from here starting writing out – daily, the most common self judgments I accepted and allowed to entertain and participate in within my Mind. From here, I started redefining the self judgments into self acceptance. Together with this, I started a process of redefining self perfection more into something real, something tangible that assisted and supported me in my process through making mistakes and learning from them. This I will continue with in posts to come.

When it comes to redefining yourself within words – the key is to find an ‘anchor point’ within your everyday life that serves as the initial platform within and as which you practise the redefined-living of yourself within and as the word. For example, with me: I started changing the living definition of myself when it came to the word ‘perfection’ in the context of making mistakes. Once I became more comfortable and natural in living the word perfection in this one context – I started expanding myself, my world in a way of seeing where else, in what moments in my everyday life can I redefine and live the word perfection.

But, initially – it assists and supports to start with ONE POINT within yourself and your life to get a ‘feel’ for the process involved with redefining yourself in and as a word. Once you get through the anchor point – really visibly change in who you are in thought, word and deed in a proven way for yourself and others: you will find that the next points / dimensions in yourself / your life you’d like to change will be much easier, because you have now developed that trust and knowing within yourself when it comes to how to redefine and live yourself within and as a specific word.

Getting back to my anchor point, starting my process of redefining myself within and as perfection, which started with my experience in moments of making a mistake:

Within the experience and reflection of making a mistake, I would during this process forgive the judgments and change them into acceptance, gifting me the opportunity within myself to be able to take a step back and look at what I need to refine, adjust, specify and re-align within myself. To so be able to look at the mistake, learn from it, grow through it and also become a living example of others to be able to effectively learn through and from me based on my effectiveness of learning from and through the mistake. Then, I would equally start living my redefinition of the word perfection, which was: “To walk the process of writing, forgiveness and change within awareness – with the specificity, detail and depth of self honesty and awareness that is here as me in THAT MOMENT / point in time in my process.”

Essentially, perfection for me became something personal and intimate in my process walking from consciousness to awareness. This definition assisted and supported me in a way of not so easily / readily accepting and allowing judgments or accepting and allowing the fear of not being perfect, because I would remind myself that: I am me. I am here. I will strive to in this moment, this experience – be as specific, detailed and in-depth with myself as I am honestly, within my awareness able to. To assist and support me and so others.

Therefore, perfection was not defined in relation to others or anything external about myself – but rooted within WHO I AM able to be, the POTENTIAL I am able to be in moments and experiences within myself and my life.

In this, perfection then also became my personal challenge, where: I wouldn’t only ‘just be specific, in-depth and detailed’ but PUSH MYSELF to be as specific, in-depth and detailed as possible. Always REMEMBERING and REMINDING myself I am in a CONSTANT, CONTINUOUS journey of LEARNING in this lifetime within myself and my life. To ACCEPT mistakes EQUALLY as I would accept MYSELF! Acceptance when it came to mistakes assisted and supported me to drop this polarity of judgment and perfectionism, as well as the fear and desire inner-conflict I existed in for much of my life.

This again, the beauty of redefining words and so redefining yourself. From perfection being both a fear and desire, catapulting me into the consequences of self judgment: I transformed me and so the word perfection for me in a way that assisted and supported me within my personal process. Where the word and so my living experience of it became a support for me, rather than my own self-destructive demise that I accepted and allowed.

I’ll continue more in posts to come

Isness vs Rebirth (Part 2): DAY 11

Isness vs Rebirth (Part 2): DAY 11

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 9)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

In the next post, I will continue with sharing a way through this Controlling Fear, through the barriers of protection / defence mechanisms keeping Human Consciousness in an stuckness / isness of being ‘I am what I am’ – with this point a contributory factor to why and how it is that we intrinsically have not changed within / throughout the history of human civilization; and why our minds, our lives and the world as a whole keep on cycling through the same perpetual consequence generation after generation.

When I started walking process, I started with the most ‘obvious’ things in my Mind and relationship with others that were undeniably compromising me and my life in general. Like, for example the point of ‘taking things personally’ – this was an obvious point that I could clearly see in my Mind and relationship with others was affecting me, my behaviour, the experience of myself and decisions I would make when it comes to other people and how I experience / behave towards them.

So, what is suggested within your process – to break through the controlling fear of your Consciousness keeping you in an “isness self acceptance” is to simply have a look at your own mind and relationship with others / things in your life that you can clearly see is compromising your experience. For example: seeing that you emotionally react to the same person in the same instance over and over and over again, seeing that you have difficulty waking up in the mornings – having a tendency to wake up with emotion, seeing that you judge yourself constantly throughout the day, seeing how you fear the future, seeing how memories of the past still haunt you when they come up within you to which you emotionally react…so, identify one such point within yourself and start working with it / on it with the tools of writing, forgiveness and practical living application as walked in the DIP Lite (Free Course) and DIP Pro Course.

Herein, with taking one point and seeing for yourself how you can change – this moment gives you the OPPORTUNITY, a ‘break through’ opportunity to be able to take on and walk through the other parts of yourself in your Mind / your life in general to walk into and as a process of change.

When I started with taking that first step of walking self-forgiveness and changing myself in moments, an interesting thing developed within me: I was becoming curious as to how I would change with investigating, understanding and opening up all the other things within myself and my life…and so my process of change, of becoming and realising my utmost potential started. Because, I realised that: I initially interpreted the process of change to be like a “180 degrees flip”, you know – where it was like all of me was on one side of an A4 paper and change would be when you flip that piece of paper around completely and I would become so changed I would not recognize myself at all…when this is not how this process of change happens…

This process of change happens more as a birthing process through which a ‘changed self EMERGE’; so it’s more like an ‘emergence’ of self than a complete ‘flip’ that happens. For example, you can look at it as: standing on one side of a waterfall, in the cave of the Mind – always only ever seeing the inside of the cave / the mind as it exists, always only looking into the waterfall as the milieu of thoughts and emotions your consciousness generate…so, process is more like parts of you, walking a process through the waterfall, understanding the thoughts and emotions, the ‘self’ it creates in the cave of the mind / consciousness and out into the other side into the seeing / realising of your utmost potential. As you walk through the waterfall, the process of understanding the thoughts/emotions and the extent to which they define / affect behaviour and one’s experience – you simultaneously start transforming / changing and in this process your awareness EXPANDS into and as the ‘great outdoors’, the multi-dimensions of the mind and this reality - SEEING MORE as YOU become MORE within yourself in/as your transforming, birthing and expansion process.

For example: when I was taking things personally, I believed that ‘it’s who/how/what I am’ – because my thoughts and emotions would automatically, immediately come up and I would react to another person’s words / behaviour…never KNOWING that I can actually change the experience of myself. So, here – a part of me was in the cave of the mind, this part defined as ‘taking things personally’; so as long as I accept/allow a part of me to exist as ‘taking things personally’ – whenever a person would speak with me/behave towards me a certain way and that resonates towards me, my mind: the potential for me to take things personally will always exist, because I accept/allow a part of me as ‘taking things personally to exist’…therefore becoming predictable in the sense of in similar situations / with similar people speaking / behaving in particular ways – to react in taking them personally.

So, the process is thus to change / transform this part of myself of ‘taking things personally’ into rather ‘seeing the words / behaviour through the eyes of the person, considering them’. This is the process of walking through the waterfall, out of the cave – as a part of you would then transform from always accepting/allowing to take things personally, to now standing in the shoes of another. So then, every time people speak / behave in certain ways and that resonates towards self – instead of the ‘taking things personally’ part of myself stepping forth, what now stands is ‘standing in the shoes another’ and instead support them rather than react to them.

The actual process through the waterfall is understanding the thoughts and emotions creating the ‘taking things personally’ part of myself, where they come from, why they exist, why I accepted them – to forgive and let go of the thoughts / reactions and instead make a decision to stand, be stable and change myself in the moment and how I respond in the moment. Herein, self EXPANDS – because previously: I was limited to only seeing my own thoughts / emotions in such moments – now, with moving beyond them, remaining stable and placing myself in the shoes of another – I SEE more, UNDERSTAND more about myself and others, because with taking that step back and out of my own mind, I now learn more about another – why they do / say what they do in moments, that it more defines them than it ever defined me, for example. So, it’s fascinating how much you LEARN about yourself as these parts of you EMERGE from the cave of the Mind through the waterfall of change into a self expansion within oneself, one’s relationship with others.

So, this process is not a change as in a ‘flip’ change, but a change as in how you transform, birth ‘dormant potentials’ within yourself and so EXPAND yourself to being / becoming so much more than the accepted and allowed limitations the controlling fear of consciousness impose on one, keeping one in the darkness of the mind to not see / realise and in fact live the potential within self that’s been suppressed. You just need to take that step to move THROUGH and BEYOND your thoughts and emotions and realise that there is a part, an awareness within yourself that can direct and change your thoughts and emotions for the betterment of you, your experience and your relationship with others.

So, again – I suggest, for those who are ‘sceptic’ – take a self honest moment with yourself, identify difficult / challenging things in your mind pertaining to thoughts, memories and emotions that have become a repetitive cycle you can see is compromising your experience, body / relationship with another and see what change emerge, how you transform yourself – showing yourself how change is a birthing process and how you can expand yourself with UNDERSTANDING how the mind, thoughts and emotions work with the ability to direct them and change them.

In the next post I will continue with some practical examples of how exactly one’s awareness expand as you walk the process of self transformation, change and eventual birthing – the process of realising one’s potential and eventually living one’s utmost potential…

How Bad can what comes Naturally be?: DAY 5

How Bad can what comes Naturally be?: DAY 5

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 5)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

In the next post I will continue with the second dimension that opened up while watching The Lorax movie and then bring all the knowledge and information I shared thus far into practical living examples for you to be able to more practically comprehend how and why this process of change takes time, patience and discipline.

“How bad can I be? I'm just doing what comes naturally.”

http://www.metrolyrics.com/how-bad-can-i-be-lyrics-ed-helms-the-lorax-singers.html

In The Lorax movie, a character sings the above-mentioned song. To understand the context of the song, would really suggest watching the movie to also understand the context in which I will be placing the words of the song within this process we’re walking in relation to Utmost Potential.

The words / statement within the song that stood out for me was: “How bad can I be? I'm just doing what comes naturally.”

I looked at myself in the beginning of my process and did not for myself see any ‘reason’ to personally change. Even though my mind and my life was difficult / challenging – I in NO way had any IDEA the extent to which ‘who I am’ in thought, word and deed was in fact affecting and so creating my relationship to my physical body and so with people in general. In my life, I felt like a leaf being blown into any and all directions – so, I was directionless, irresponsible, powerless and above-all…I felt helpless, as though who I was / everything that I experienced was simply in the hands of ‘fate’…I was merely just ‘walking my life, walking me and that’s all there is to it’. So, to me – who/how I was: this is who/how I’ve always been…“naturally”. Meaning, it was not only in my ‘present’ – when I was 18 / 19 years old that I felt directionless, irresponsible, powerless and helpless, but looking back into my past – I was in fact making the statement that I am powerless / helpless to change myself / my life in any way, because I was not to blame for who I had become, how I was living and what I was doing with my life up to that point. It was the feeling of standing on a tight-rope – me standing in the centre, my past not being ‘my fault’ and my future also then not being ‘my fault / my responsibility’ – because who/how I was in the present, ‘I was not responsible for’ and because I felt powerless, helpless in my relationship to the past, I so felt this way n the present and so would feel this way about my future.

So, because of these dimensions…and obviously so much more, I simply accepted and believed that who I am is my ‘fate’, ‘cemented’…like, ‘this is it’. But, when I was introduced to the process of writing, self forgiveness – I initially didn’t write as much, but immediately started living it, applying it – in moments assessing my thoughts / emotions, taking that step back, applying forgiveness within myself / out loud and then changing myself…slowly but surely a ‘fire’ started rising within me…like, I started wanting more for myself, I started wanting more for myself out of life, I wanted to better myself in who I am within thought, word and deed…I actually wanted the responsibility for who/how I was in thought, word and deed. Because, with walking my process – I started empowering myself with realising I can change and with change – affect / influence and so direct my relationships with others and my life in general. Realising, knowing and living this…is and has been awesome.

And so, within my process – obviously with walking writing, self forgiveness and then the actual self change in moments and from there when the Portalling opened – I realised that who / how I was…was NOT ‘Natural’, it was never a ‘this is it’, cemented, ‘lost-in-the-hands-of-fate’ situation – but that we only think/believe it’s ‘natural’, because it apparently ‘comes naturally’ when you look at how thoughts and emotions comes up within you. When in fact, it doesn’t happen ‘naturally’ – your thoughts and emotions are programmed into an automated SYSTEM as the Mind Consciousness System that functions based on external and internal stimuli that activates the input-output mechanism, which determines accordingly who you are in moments and what you live. So, this is also what we do through the Portalling with interviews available on EQAFE, through DIP Lite, through DIP Pro: showing you what your MIND in fact is, how your REAL NATURAL AWARENESS had been suppressed / repressed and how to access and eventually LIVE your REAL SELF.

Therefore, the point I’d like to make within this post is to primarily understand, as I have and so many others – that: who/what you are now in relation to the Mind is not ‘natural’…but ‘automated’; we’ve become organic robots instead of LIVING BEINGS and for anyone that can relate to this experience of yourself, where you can’t even conceive of self change and the empowerment that self-responsibility can bring to you within yourself and your life – I would really suggest investigating Desteni, EQAFE, DIP Lite and DIP Pro…where you can SHOW YOURSELF and so SEE for YOURSELF how what you have always believed yourself to be…was never natural / real / true and that you can realise so much more about yourself and life if you’d start becoming the SEED of SELF-POTENTIAL.

Will continue more in the next post…

It’s not the SIZE of the SEED that Counts…: DAY 4

It’s not about the SIZE of the SEED…: DAY 4

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 4)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

Obviously this MOMENT where you step back, access your potential/being/awareness, assess the thoughts and emotions and then CHANGE – the CHANGE PROCESS, is a process in itself as well…and this I will continue with in the next post, together with a practical example of moments during the early years of my process that were significant when I started accessing my potential, my me and started growing as the seed of potential, of awareness…eventually into and as LIFE.

One afternoon, a friend of mine’s 4-year-old asked me to watch a movie with him – The Lorax. As I was watching the movie I could immediately relate two specific dimensions walked within the movie to what we’re walking here in relation to the seed of self-potential; when you become / realise yourself as the seed of potential when you show yourself how you can change. In this post, I will share these two dimensions and how they relate to the seed of self-potential and do suggest watching the movie.

"It's not about what it is. It's about what it can become."

In the movie, there is an interaction between two characters – where the one is holding a seed and the other states “It’s not about what it is. It’s about what it can become”. Essentially meaning that it’s not the SIZE of the seed that is of significance…but what that SEED can BECOME…

Having a look at the SEED of self-POTENTIAL we’re in the process of walking here – I find this to be quite relevant, because when you start walking your process you have to walk it MOMENT by MOMENT. You cannot KNOW who (in your beingness/presence) and how (in your thought, word and deed) you’ll become – because this is not a process that is walked with knowledge only, there is a direct-relationship between knowledge and APPLICATION. Meaning: your self-change process starts small, like a small seed – the MOMENTS where you realise that you can stop participation in thoughts/reactions and behaviour patterns and then actually change within yourself and behaviour in that MOMENT…this is where YOU as the SEED start growing.

So, for your self-potential to become REAL, to be LIVED – there has to be a direct-relationship between knowledge and application/living. The knowledge in this process being writing, self forgiveness (which is the practical process to walk, facilitating change from consciousness to awareness) and then the application/living of what you realised about yourself in how you can change that you could see while walking writing and self forgiveness. So, the process, the platform of ACCESSING the SEED and then GROWING as the seed is HERE – all that you need to do is walk / apply it for yourself…

What many will be able to relate to when it comes to this process is: especially in the beginning – where you really only start with the very, very, very small seed – you cannot immediately see / experience yourself changing, because the change happens gradually as you move yourself and change yourself in thought, word and deed. This is the part where the above statement "It's not about what it is. It's about what it can become" is of significance – because the process of change takes time and patience, and in space and time, as you walk change moment by moment – every moment you apply/live the change in real-time: you as the seed start growing, almost unnoticeable until your being/awareness starts breaking through the mind/consciousness, embodies itself into and as the physical and you can noticeably start seeing/experiencing your self-change based on how you change in your living and general experience.  

I, myself – when I started walking this process, there were moments where I wondered whether I was changing…but it often showed in the most unexpected of ways in the most unpredictable of moments, where my self-change NATURALLY came through based on the dedication and discipline to the SMALL MOMENTS I applied/lived self forgiveness and changed myself in thought, word and deed.

In the next post I will continue with the second dimension that opened up while watching The Lorax movie and then bring all the knowledge and information I shared thus far into practical living examples for you to be able to more practically comprehend how and why this process of change takes time, patience and discipline. Because, if you look at a seed – a seed starts GROWING from WITHIN…it doesn’t ‘look to the future’ in terms of ‘thinking about’ what it’s going to become, nor does it ‘look to the future’ and think about the process it has to walk to reach its utmost potential. This is what we often do within our Minds…we project to the future, look at the process ahead…instead of realising that self-growth of self-potential and the becoming/living of our utmost potential is a process walked from within, moment to moment into and as the without.

The Rise of Emotion and the Fall of Self

The Rise of Emotion and the Fall of Self

Quantum Time and Physical Space-Time Equilibrium (continued)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

I will continue more in the next post explaining / sharing the process of how emotional reactions / response-patterns change / transform to self-expression; and how this process of walking from the Quantum Time dimensions of Consciousness into and as the equilibrium of Space and Time in the Physical – assist and support with understanding what it means to Live Patience.

I have found that there is a hint of impatience existent – every time I accept and allow myself to go into an emotional reaction. Where I do not take a moment to breathe and slowly look at a moment / conversation with another, but IMMEDIATELY in a quantum moment activate any and every kind of thought / emotional reaction within me. Thus, we’re going to have a look at where and how within your day-to-day life – you can start practising the living of Patience in relation to yourself, a moment and another.

For this post, I would suggest a practical application process for yourself to observe how Impatience is actually existent in every and any moment you go into an emotional reaction (I’ll eventually get to the positive feeling, but most will be able to prominently relate to emotional reactions / energy experiences). Observe yourself in moments where you become emotional – whether anxiety, irritation, resistance, frustration, anger etc. What you’ll notice happens is that your solar plexus and chest area becomes tight, your upper-body becomes tense as this overwhelming energy rises up within you. It’s interesting how with emotional energy – because it is so intense / overwhelming, it creates this illusion of “rising” on an unconscious-level – which also contributes to why we sometimes use emotion in situations / conversations, it presents the illusion of self “rising to the occasion” / “having power to speak up / speak your mind”. Thus, this is another dimension in relation to emotion that I would suggest introspecting: the illusion that emotion presents to you in the mind and body as to having more ‘power’ / ‘strength’ to be able to take on the situation / person, like the emotional energy “backs you up” in a way; showing that you cannot stand alone, by yourself and your own words – but need emotional energy to ‘stand with you’. Additionally within this to see, realise and understand that it’s not about ‘speaking your MIND’ – speaking your mind, especially when in emotional reaction – is speaking reactions, it is then not you, your awareness speaking. (I will continue expanding on the difference between speaking your mind and speaking as self in posts to come)

So, with physically experiencing the emotion rising up within you and you rising with it further / deeper into the Mind – you will notice that you in that moment REALLY focus ONLY on how you feel, what you are thinking; so a complete separation manifests between you, the moment / situation in reality and then the other person. This then leads one to start ‘speaking your Mind’ and only perpetuates conflict / friction in your world / reality in relation to a situation / another person.

Therefore, for this post – what I would like you to observe for yourself are these two things:

ONE: how the physical body responds to the emotion coming up as it rises within you and TWO: how you internally only focus on your own thoughts and emotions in that moment, as though the thoughts and emotions are a lot more emphasized / standing out and clear  - really ‘highlighted’, so much so that you cannot take your attention off of it and it really captivates you and so captures you into/as the Mind, instead of being here with breath, yourself, the body and the moment in reality to be able to understand the situation and come up with a practical solution.

Why is it important to be able to observe this / become of aware of how we respond to thoughts and emotions and what is its relationship to Impatience? See: because Consciousness exist in ‘quantum time’ – it with emotion, for example, moves you SO FAST into the Mind and then brings up a lot of thoughts VERY fast, so you will also become aware of how fast and how many thoughts will come up in your Mind in the moment of an emotional reaction. This is to ensure you remain distracted from you, breath and the physical body – to not see the reality of the situation / moment / yourself and the other person – but keep on paying attention to your own thoughts and emotions. So, what happens within this – is: you come to believe in your own thoughts and reactions about a situation / person, instead of remaining calm and stable, moving in space-time breathing with the physical body and directly looking at the situation / person with awareness / commonsense and an outcome for a solution. It is really, really, really fascinating how one’s perspective of a situation / other person changes – with taking responsibility and forgiving your own thoughts and emotions, calming down and being stable and then instead looking at the situation, yourself and the other person with stability and clarity.

This is where Impatience plays a major role – we have not yet lived / applied the PATIENCE with OURSELVES, to not move so FAST and IMMEDIATE into the quantum time dimensions of emotional energy / consciousness, to just take a moment for ourselves, sort out our own thoughts / reactions and then look at the moment with such clarity and perspective.

One of the main things to understand when it comes to emotional reactions and then the thoughts / backchats that follows is that: whatever comes up in your mind – does not define the situation, nor the other person, but in fact reflects things to you that you have not directed / sorted out inside yourself. Therefore, before directing situations / people within it – take responsibility for yourself / your own mind, clear yourself and drop the veil of consciousness. Then, take a moment – that moment where you breathe and you’re sure you are clear and then take responsibility for the moment / the other person by LOOKING at how you are going to direct the situation / person into and as a practical solution.

In the next post, we’re going to have a look at how all the points come together, from Impatience to LIVING Patience with self, to how the quantum time dimensions of the mind and the space-time continuum of the physical come-together to assist and support in this process of looking at things / seeing direct; instead of shifting into impatience and so the quantum time of the Mind/Consciousness that manifest the necessary separation from yourself and physical reality to perpetuate consequence / compromise instead of bringing your world to solutions and direction.