The Paths that Lead us…(Part Two)

The Paths that Lead us…(Part Two)

  

In the next post – I’ll continue with “the paths that lead us” – how from one perspective, we’ll take paths in our lives that’ll lead us into a particular direction, but at the same time, you can lead yourself through that path based on who you are and how you approach it…

This particular trip from home to our destination I have travelled many times before – with all the previous times being a pretty straightforward trip, therefore I projected that this trip would be no different to the previous times cause each and every single time it went problem-free. Boy, was I proven wrong when it comes to referencing memories and then facing real time in reality!

It’s interesting because I have faced such things many times before – where it’s been proven to me to not project, to walk life in the present, expect the unexpended, be prepared for anything and everything…yet, lol – in this instance I realised that I hadn’t yet effectively reminded myself of how unpredictable life can be when it comes to the area of travelling. I have managed to correct this in my everyday life – the day-to-day living, but hadn’t been on a trip in years, so the moment passed me by as the projections of the trip / the memories of past trips automatically came up as it did all those years ago, and so seemingly ‘naturally’ trusted my past references / memories of how the trip is going to turn out. I have found it was this one singular starting point that lead to the domino-effects of the experience inside myself during the trip.

What was interesting when I traced back the moment of what caused the initial experiences inside myself when the trip went differently to what I initially expected it would: I found the mind can be so subtle, the projections of how the trip was going to go was not that intense, there was no distinct energy / excitement linked to the projections, it was more – the moment the projections came up of how the trip was going to go, I experienced a ‘trust’, an ‘ordinariness’ as though a part of me was simply going “ah, okay, this is how the trip is going to go – all good”. So, I realised I went into a “going with the flow” experience, that everything will be “smooth sailing”…

Then, the next significant moment, which is where the domino effects started – was the moment we heard there was an accident on the highway and we got directed via the alternate route, so this moment was like a rock coming at me as I was “going with the flow / smooth sailing” in my memories / projections of how the trip was going to go and it shook me inside myself – with knowing the added time / travelling that was before us. Then from there, lol – it was as though rock after rock as event after event came in the way – me still holding onto the expectancy of it going smooth sailing…which didn’t happen.

So, as we were driving and the rocks (real events in reality we in no way could have predicted / anticipated) kept on piling up in front of us on our way to the destination – I stopped for a moment inside myself, took a breath and walked back in time to have a look at where I shifted inside myself and how I created this experience inside myself. Because what ‘woke me up’ inside myself in a way was the moment the thought came of “let’s just turn around and go back” – because this is not how I usually handle things whenever there is difficulty / challenge – yes, I may go through the ups and downs that’s involved, but I will not give up and always find a way. So, the moment that thought came up I knew “uh oh, here’s emotion involved – the nature of the thought is giving up / giving in, how’d I create this?”

With knowing myself through the years of process I have walked - I knew I’d gone into a ‘negative experience’ inside myself so had to have somewhere started off in a ‘positive experience’ (this relationship between the mind’s negative, positive and neutral dynamics in walked within interviews in EQAFE – specifically the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series). This is how I traced it back to the moment I went into the projections / memories before the trip – even though the experience of ‘going with the flow’ was SO SUBTLE, barely recognisable even by myself in that moment, it was still me shifting into a positive experience and expecting a positive experience from the overall trip. Then the moment reality came around when we got rerouted…lol, my positive smooth sailing experience got ROCKED, literally, shaking me from the positive to the negative.

So, while driving in the car – used the extra time and travelling, walked self forgiveness on everything I saw / realised, from the positive moment through into the negative, released the energy and grounded myself making the decision of who I am in relation to the unexpected, the unpredictable, so that whatever rock comes my way – I stand before it, assess it and direct myself through it, around it or over it. Rather than holding onto a projection / memory and positive experience expectation - with every time a rock / unexpected event coming shaking me / my experience into a negative; because I am going to have to go through/over/around that rock / unexpected event anyway – whether I’m emotional about it or grounded…so, I determine and decide the experience of myself, who I am / will be. I’d much rather be grounded / stable when facing unexpected events than accepting and allowing myself to be emotional, constantly shifting from positive to negative experiences in thoughts / projections. In so doing – missing an opportunity for self realisation and self expansion that can emerge by rather asking myself “what can I learn about myself from this unexpected event?”

Will continue more in the next post – expanding on how walking the forgiveness and deciding who I am changed the rest of the trip / experience for myself.

The Paths that Lead us…

The Paths that Lead us…

I recently went on a Road trip to a family event with my brother and his partner. From where I live to the destination should have been a 6 – 7 hour drive max, but turned out into a 13 hour trip. The trip itself was not smooth-sailing – not at all. It was long, arduous, challenging and oftentimes alarming, with moments coming up within me wondering if we shouldn’t just turn back and go home…

Here’s the story of how I assisted and supported myself to deal with this unexpected experience which (eventually) turned out to be quite a fruitful adventure.

We left in the morning around 08:30 am, estimating to arrive at our destination around 16:00 pm that same day – yet, by 16:00 pm we had not even managed to reach halfway. We’ve been on the road for a good 7 hours and the paths we took lead us in all sorts of other directions, except for the direction towards our destination. Here is a brief breakdown of what happened – mostly due to errors on our part…

About an hour’s worth of driving before reaching the halfway mark of our road trip – an accident occurred on the highway right in front of the town that was to be our halfway stop and so no cars had access to reach this town via the highway.  The traffic officers were sending everyone through an alternate route, which in itself added almost another 2 hours to the trip. With this, the three of us decided to use GPS to see if we can find another shorter alternate route to get back onto the highway and drive the more direct route to our destination, hoping that the GPS would place us back onto the highway in a position where we’d miss the accident; essentially finding a way around the accident, back onto the highway instead of driving an entire alternate route. This did not work out.

We ended up getting back onto the highway, but right behind the accident and so we parked the car on the highway and decided to wait it out…but after 2 hours of waiting and gathering information from the traffic / accident departments we realised we didn’t know how long we’d have to wait and so decided to turn back and drive the initial alternate route. Yet, driving back to the initial alternate route as the traffic officers directed would have also taken a lot of time and so we decided to consult the GPS once more to see if we can find a shorter route back to the alternate route than the roads we initially took…This did not work out. The GPS malfunctioned in rural / farm areas where we’d been driving, taking us into long, bendy, thin, barely drivable roads until there was a moment the GPS said to turn right and there was no right!!! This lead us to once again turn around – lay the GPS to rest, let go of wanting to make up for time and find shorter routes and return to the paths we know will lead us to the destination.

All of the above took us from about 08:30 in the morning until 15:00 – 16:00 in the afternoon, still not having reached our halfway mark! Because, when we eventually reached the initial alternate route – the alternate route had roads that haven’t been worked on for over 5 years…the roads were in a dire state of decay with so many holes / falling apart that all the cars / trucks from the highway were backed up bumper-to-bumper and weaving through these roads trying to find space to actually drive on…This in itself delayed us for almost 2 hours until we eventually between 17:00 – 18:00 reached the town as the halfway mark and from there it was smooth sailing except for minor delays where they were still working on the roads with only one lane available and had to wait between 15 – 20 minutes for cars from one direction to pass before cars from our direction could pass.

So, with all the accidents, taking shortcuts ending up delaying us even more, the condition of roads, traffic, wrong turns etc. – we eventually after 13 hours reached our destination! In the beginning, when we’d already been on the road for 7 hours with not reaching even our halfway mark I suggested we turn around and go home – but then again, what came up in me was “we’ve been through all of this, let’s push forward” and I’m grateful we did, because the weekend with family opened up / inspired many realisations in the relationship with myself and others for which I am grateful. So, the entire journey – through all the ups and downs was definitely worth it in the end…

One of the first realisations I was looking at as we were driving was how much of life generally tends to be this way – many mistakes, wrong turns, falling, going into a certain direction only leading to nowhere and having to stop / change course, failing etc.; yet within this I’d say we don’t tend to enough focus on ourselves and what we can learn from this journey, this experience that is our lives. Where we more tend to focus on the things going wrong / bad or shall I rather say the things not going according to how we expect / initially plan them to – instead of focusing on who we are within and during this journey, this experience that is our lives. Because, during the initial first 7 hours – there was a moment where I embraced even the possibility that things could get worse, I played out the worst possible scenarios of what could have happened and had to be okay with it, knowing that whatever will come, I have me, I have my process, my self honesty and there’s much still on a personal level for me to face, to realise about me and life in general…so, I essentially had to accept the fact that we can never know where the paths in our lives will lead us, to not prejudge it, to not expect / anticipate or try and predetermine a certain path / journey – but maintain focus on who I am in every moment and what I am going to learn about me, my process and my life within whatever comes.

So, in the next post – I’ll continue with “the paths that lead us” – how from one perspective, we’ll take paths in our lives that’ll lead us into a particular direction, but at the same time, you can lead yourself through that path based on who you are and how you approach it…

Isness vs Rebirth (Part 2): DAY 11

Isness vs Rebirth (Part 2): DAY 11

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 9)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

In the next post, I will continue with sharing a way through this Controlling Fear, through the barriers of protection / defence mechanisms keeping Human Consciousness in an stuckness / isness of being ‘I am what I am’ – with this point a contributory factor to why and how it is that we intrinsically have not changed within / throughout the history of human civilization; and why our minds, our lives and the world as a whole keep on cycling through the same perpetual consequence generation after generation.

When I started walking process, I started with the most ‘obvious’ things in my Mind and relationship with others that were undeniably compromising me and my life in general. Like, for example the point of ‘taking things personally’ – this was an obvious point that I could clearly see in my Mind and relationship with others was affecting me, my behaviour, the experience of myself and decisions I would make when it comes to other people and how I experience / behave towards them.

So, what is suggested within your process – to break through the controlling fear of your Consciousness keeping you in an “isness self acceptance” is to simply have a look at your own mind and relationship with others / things in your life that you can clearly see is compromising your experience. For example: seeing that you emotionally react to the same person in the same instance over and over and over again, seeing that you have difficulty waking up in the mornings – having a tendency to wake up with emotion, seeing that you judge yourself constantly throughout the day, seeing how you fear the future, seeing how memories of the past still haunt you when they come up within you to which you emotionally react…so, identify one such point within yourself and start working with it / on it with the tools of writing, forgiveness and practical living application as walked in the DIP Lite (Free Course) and DIP Pro Course.

Herein, with taking one point and seeing for yourself how you can change – this moment gives you the OPPORTUNITY, a ‘break through’ opportunity to be able to take on and walk through the other parts of yourself in your Mind / your life in general to walk into and as a process of change.

When I started with taking that first step of walking self-forgiveness and changing myself in moments, an interesting thing developed within me: I was becoming curious as to how I would change with investigating, understanding and opening up all the other things within myself and my life…and so my process of change, of becoming and realising my utmost potential started. Because, I realised that: I initially interpreted the process of change to be like a “180 degrees flip”, you know – where it was like all of me was on one side of an A4 paper and change would be when you flip that piece of paper around completely and I would become so changed I would not recognize myself at all…when this is not how this process of change happens…

This process of change happens more as a birthing process through which a ‘changed self EMERGE’; so it’s more like an ‘emergence’ of self than a complete ‘flip’ that happens. For example, you can look at it as: standing on one side of a waterfall, in the cave of the Mind – always only ever seeing the inside of the cave / the mind as it exists, always only looking into the waterfall as the milieu of thoughts and emotions your consciousness generate…so, process is more like parts of you, walking a process through the waterfall, understanding the thoughts and emotions, the ‘self’ it creates in the cave of the mind / consciousness and out into the other side into the seeing / realising of your utmost potential. As you walk through the waterfall, the process of understanding the thoughts/emotions and the extent to which they define / affect behaviour and one’s experience – you simultaneously start transforming / changing and in this process your awareness EXPANDS into and as the ‘great outdoors’, the multi-dimensions of the mind and this reality - SEEING MORE as YOU become MORE within yourself in/as your transforming, birthing and expansion process.

For example: when I was taking things personally, I believed that ‘it’s who/how/what I am’ – because my thoughts and emotions would automatically, immediately come up and I would react to another person’s words / behaviour…never KNOWING that I can actually change the experience of myself. So, here – a part of me was in the cave of the mind, this part defined as ‘taking things personally’; so as long as I accept/allow a part of me to exist as ‘taking things personally’ – whenever a person would speak with me/behave towards me a certain way and that resonates towards me, my mind: the potential for me to take things personally will always exist, because I accept/allow a part of me as ‘taking things personally to exist’…therefore becoming predictable in the sense of in similar situations / with similar people speaking / behaving in particular ways – to react in taking them personally.

So, the process is thus to change / transform this part of myself of ‘taking things personally’ into rather ‘seeing the words / behaviour through the eyes of the person, considering them’. This is the process of walking through the waterfall, out of the cave – as a part of you would then transform from always accepting/allowing to take things personally, to now standing in the shoes of another. So then, every time people speak / behave in certain ways and that resonates towards self – instead of the ‘taking things personally’ part of myself stepping forth, what now stands is ‘standing in the shoes another’ and instead support them rather than react to them.

The actual process through the waterfall is understanding the thoughts and emotions creating the ‘taking things personally’ part of myself, where they come from, why they exist, why I accepted them – to forgive and let go of the thoughts / reactions and instead make a decision to stand, be stable and change myself in the moment and how I respond in the moment. Herein, self EXPANDS – because previously: I was limited to only seeing my own thoughts / emotions in such moments – now, with moving beyond them, remaining stable and placing myself in the shoes of another – I SEE more, UNDERSTAND more about myself and others, because with taking that step back and out of my own mind, I now learn more about another – why they do / say what they do in moments, that it more defines them than it ever defined me, for example. So, it’s fascinating how much you LEARN about yourself as these parts of you EMERGE from the cave of the Mind through the waterfall of change into a self expansion within oneself, one’s relationship with others.

So, this process is not a change as in a ‘flip’ change, but a change as in how you transform, birth ‘dormant potentials’ within yourself and so EXPAND yourself to being / becoming so much more than the accepted and allowed limitations the controlling fear of consciousness impose on one, keeping one in the darkness of the mind to not see / realise and in fact live the potential within self that’s been suppressed. You just need to take that step to move THROUGH and BEYOND your thoughts and emotions and realise that there is a part, an awareness within yourself that can direct and change your thoughts and emotions for the betterment of you, your experience and your relationship with others.

So, again – I suggest, for those who are ‘sceptic’ – take a self honest moment with yourself, identify difficult / challenging things in your mind pertaining to thoughts, memories and emotions that have become a repetitive cycle you can see is compromising your experience, body / relationship with another and see what change emerge, how you transform yourself – showing yourself how change is a birthing process and how you can expand yourself with UNDERSTANDING how the mind, thoughts and emotions work with the ability to direct them and change them.

In the next post I will continue with some practical examples of how exactly one’s awareness expand as you walk the process of self transformation, change and eventual birthing – the process of realising one’s potential and eventually living one’s utmost potential…

Isness vs Rebirth: DAY 10

Isness vs Rebirth: DAY 10

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 8)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

In the next post, I will continue sharing more detail in terms of how to identify the ABSOLUTE ideas / beliefs you can hold onto that interferes with you seeing/facing the ‘current real you’ in reality, as well why and how it is that your envisioned / imagined potential is but a mere GLIMPSE of what you can potentially be / become with walking self change practically moment by moment, breath by breath.

I have personally found with interacting with people – there is an “Isness Self Acceptance” existent, whereby the individual’s ‘who, how and what I am’ is so cemented into their consciousness, they do not see (or do not want to see) the reason – let alone potential – for self change. This mainly existent within the statement “why should I change?” / “I don’t need to change” / “I am what I am” – as there is a full, complete ‘current self acceptance’ as a whole embracing and simultaneous lockdown simultaneously the Mind. Essentially saying “I am the Mind – I am what I am – nothing more, nothing less”.

These types of barriers are tough to break through, because I have often heard people say “there is nothing wrong with me”, “I don’t need to do self forgiveness because I didn’t do anything wrong”, “I am fine – I like who I am and I am not going to change for anyone / anything”. So, these types of common statements – in each one of them, I have found that people intrinsically do not understand the purpose / reason for process and often approach it by ‘taking it personally’ or resisting / fighting it because they are interpreting process as ‘changing who they are’, when all the while it’s about ‘changing who, how and what we have become as the MIND’ through which the ‘real self, the utmost potential’ will emerge. (Here I would suggest investigating the DIP Lite Course – herein you will be introduced to the basic constructs of the Mind to practically understand what is meant with ‘self as the Mind’ and understand the process of self change from Consciousness to Awareness)

So, obviously – such statements would be existent from / of the ‘force of Consciousness, the Mind’ to ensure we remain ‘as is’, in an ‘isness self acceptance’ and not in any way be willing to introspect nor reflect on ourselves in thought, word and deed - and remain in this embracing, lockdown relationship with our own Minds in and as the living statement of ‘I am what I am’.  The ‘force’ that the Mind / Consciousness uses to ensure we remain in and as this ‘Isness Self Acceptance” of “I am what I am – nothing more, nothing less”: is FEAR.

The main reaction to process has been Fear. This fear comes through in many forms. How I have seen it come through in people, when looking at it interdimensionally-physically is like the energy coming up from deep inside their minds and bodies and overwhelming the Conscious and Subconscious Mind – the mind completely taking over the person’s ‘self’ and so the person will ‘react’ by either going into defence as illustrated in the above statements, or ‘running away’, or becoming verbally reactive – projecting blame, fault onto me / others, or finding any and all excuse, reason / justification for this ‘Isness Self Acceptance’.

Fear takes on many forms and many believe fear only exist as an energy-experience, and so when they do not immediately go into a ‘fear energy’ – then they believe they are not in fear. When all the while – because the Mind is layered multi-dimensionally into the conscious, subconscious, unconscious, quantum mind and quantum physical – fear can take on many forms in the Mind and in Behaviour; such as illustrated above, based on how the fear reaction can be seen coming through in different ways in thought, word and deed based on the individual’s own programmed protection / defence mechanisms to remain ‘as is’ and not change into the emergence of in fact becoming something ‘more / better’ as one’s ‘utmost potential’ in life and living.

This was no different to myself in the beginning of my process – this ‘Isness Self Acceptance’ of ‘I am what I am – nothing more, nothing less’…it was only when I took the first step of starting to walk the Process, starting with things inside myself and my life where I could without a doubt see that I was compromising myself and others – that I broke through these protection / defence mechanisms of the Mind and the barriers / walls of ‘I am what I am’ that I could look back within myself and my life and see, realise and understand for myself how: it was never that anything was ‘wrong / bad’ with who, how and what I was – merely that I had an existent POTENTIAL within mySELF that I didn’t even know existed until I was SHOWN the potential I could become and me obviously showing this to myself. With this existent Potential being a process of becoming MORE, of becoming IMPROVED in who, how and what I was in my living, in my AWARENESS and my relationship with myself and others.

So, an interesting thing about this process is: the BREAKTHROUGH from “Isness” to “Rebirth” – from accepting oneself ‘as is’ as the Mind, to birthing oneSELF into and as one’s utmost potential. With this ‘utmost potential’ only being able to be shown by taking the first step to start and this first step to start is breaking through the control of fear of your own mind / consciousness and the different ways in which your Mind’s fears can manifest.

In the next post, I will continue with sharing a way through this Controlling Fear, through the barriers of protection / defence mechanisms keeping Human Consciousness in an stuckness / isness of being ‘I am what I am’ – with this point a contributory factor to why and how it is that we intrinsically have not changed within / throughout the history of human civilization; and why our minds, our lives and the world as a whole keep on cycling through the same perpetual consequence generation after generation.

Time to break through the veil of consciousness and into the rebirthing of life – the potential of the human to be / become so much more than what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be on an individual and collective level.