Dependable

Dependable

I played with the sounding of the word Dependable and the following opened up: De(The) – Pen – Able. Playing with the sounding of words is a way of redefining your relationship to the word and so the relationship with yourself. It’s a method used to see what you can learn from a word, through a word and so learn about yourself.

The words ‘The Pen Able’ stood out for me. From there, it opened up into ‘Enabling the Pen’. Once you enable a pen, a working pen – it is and becomes an dependable source used to assist and support you to write, to create, to express, to share, to communicate. We enable the pen, its ‘purpose’ by taking it in our hands and starting writing / drawing. We oftentimes think / believe a pen has no purpose until we use it. However, the pen’s very EXISTENCE is its purpose in the sense of BEING ABLE to write / draw. We SHARE and EXPERIENCE the pen’s purpose the moment we write with it / draw with it – the moment we make the pen A PART of OUR MOMENT, our world, our expression, our creativity.

From here I looked at the relationship between dependability and purpose. Looking at the question “who I am when it comes to the word dependable and living / making this word a part of me and my everyday life?” Interestingly enough, what first came up within me was everyone else in my life - wanting to be dependable for others. However, I realised this does not answer the above question. I must look at what being dependable means for ME first and foremost. How can I learn to understand what this word means for me in who I am when it comes to my relationship with me. Because, if I cannot live this word in my relationship with me – then living ‘dependable’ FOR OTHERS is going to be existent within the dimension of separation.

Looking at myself, I realised through my thoughts, words and deeds in moments in everyday life – I am a Pen. I write / draw as to create / express / communicate / behave etc. who I am as well as the story / painting of my life from one day to the next and into the future. Here, I drew an analogy between myself as a living being and the pen – both writing / drawing, bringing something new into creation / manifestation. From here, drawing the lines through when it comes to dependability and purpose – asking myself the questions: “What would it mean to enable myself, the living pen as the process of living the word dependable?” Then, “what would it practically mean for me, my relationship with who I am in thought, word and deed to live the word ‘dependable’ and what role does purpose play within this all?”

I will continue in the next post…