Practically Recognizing my Own Potential: DAY 6

Practically Recognizing my Own Potential: DAY 6

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 6)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

Obviously this MOMENT where you step back, access your potential/being/awareness, assess the thoughts and emotions and then CHANGE – the CHANGE PROCESS, is a process in itself as well…and this I will continue with in the next post, together with a practical example of moments during the early years of my process that were significant when I started accessing my potential, my me and started growing as the seed of potential, of awareness…eventually into and as LIFE.

When I was 18 / 19 years old – I was a VERY emotional individual. The smallest of things that I would take personally would affect me to such an extent that I could in a moment breakdown and cry. I was definitely ‘over sensitive’…without a doubt. I did not have any strength or stability within me when it came to people saying things to me / about me that I would take personally.

I had this tendency to want EVERYONE to like me and expected people to respond to me in a specific way, which lead to me always wanting to PLEASE everyone…in a strange way knowing that if I play on people’s likes / preferences and please that, they would respond to me in a good way and so really like me, which would ensure that I don’t have to face my fear of people not liking me and/or saying things towards me/about me behind my back that I would take personally. So, essentially – I had this massive fear of being disliked…I couldn’t handle it.

I remember how, throughout my life in my teenage years, if anyone said anything that I would interpret as ‘bad’ towards me / who I am / how I dress/behave – I would really take it to heart. Interestingly enough, I defined myself MORE in relation to the ‘bad’ things people would say about me behind my back / directly towards me than any of the ‘good’ things / compliments I would receive. It was as though within myself I had this ‘mind sponge’ that would automatically sponge up any and all negative / bad comments to which I would emotionally react extensively and then actually use that to try and ‘better myself’ / ‘make myself more likeable’ / ‘change myself FOR others’ to please them for them to accept me / like me more / invite me back into their group / invite me to parties etc. I was very insecure within who I was in all facets of my life and used the bad / negative comments/statements of other people to define everything of me…so much so that it was very difficult to even accept a good comment / compliment, it was like I couldn’t even believe it as I was so much more inclined to believe / accept and so use the bad / negative comments/statements…

So, over time I developed this MASSIVE fear for people not liking me, when it fact – I feared my own emotional response to not being able to handle / deal with other people’s bad / negative comments/statements about me. So, it wasn’t so much that I feared other’s words – it was in fact more that I feared the exhausting process that would be ahead of me if I did have to face another’s words, how it would emotionally affect me, how I would experience myself, how I would have to change myself…so I used the protection/defence mechanism of rather exhausting myself in a positive way, which was to just immediately PLEASE and be PERFECT in the eyes of others. Now, obviously the outflow consequence here was that: this didn’t always work…it would hit me even HARDER when I did go through the exhaustive process of pleasing and still…the bad/negative comments would come.

This was one of the first things I changed about myself within this process of walking self-forgiveness, where I started with speaking self-forgiveness within myself, silently when the thoughts and emotions would come up inside of me the moment someone would say something to me that I would interpret as being bad/negative. Like, even when I would receive ‘constructive criticism’ that would benefit me in expanding myself, in learning and bettering myself, I would take this personally, because in my thoughts I would say to myself “you failed in their eyes, you’re a disappointment, you made SUCH a mess of things, you made a HUGE mistake” – like, I started internalizing the bad / negative comments of others throughout my life into and as my OWN thoughts / backchats and emotions…

So, when I started the process of forgiving myself for accepting and allowing such thoughts, for accepting and allowing the emotions to overwhelm me, for accepting and allowing myself to immediately take another’s words personally – especially with an emotional starting point…my eyes started to open to what I was in fact doing to myself and how little I could in fact trust my own thoughts and emotions when it came to listening to them and automatically believing them in this context of taking another’s words personally…instead of taking that step back, HEARING their words, considering them and then responding with commonsense.

This I will continue with in the next post…

How Bad can what comes Naturally be?: DAY 5

How Bad can what comes Naturally be?: DAY 5

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 5)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

In the next post I will continue with the second dimension that opened up while watching The Lorax movie and then bring all the knowledge and information I shared thus far into practical living examples for you to be able to more practically comprehend how and why this process of change takes time, patience and discipline.

“How bad can I be? I'm just doing what comes naturally.”

http://www.metrolyrics.com/how-bad-can-i-be-lyrics-ed-helms-the-lorax-singers.html

In The Lorax movie, a character sings the above-mentioned song. To understand the context of the song, would really suggest watching the movie to also understand the context in which I will be placing the words of the song within this process we’re walking in relation to Utmost Potential.

The words / statement within the song that stood out for me was: “How bad can I be? I'm just doing what comes naturally.”

I looked at myself in the beginning of my process and did not for myself see any ‘reason’ to personally change. Even though my mind and my life was difficult / challenging – I in NO way had any IDEA the extent to which ‘who I am’ in thought, word and deed was in fact affecting and so creating my relationship to my physical body and so with people in general. In my life, I felt like a leaf being blown into any and all directions – so, I was directionless, irresponsible, powerless and above-all…I felt helpless, as though who I was / everything that I experienced was simply in the hands of ‘fate’…I was merely just ‘walking my life, walking me and that’s all there is to it’. So, to me – who/how I was: this is who/how I’ve always been…“naturally”. Meaning, it was not only in my ‘present’ – when I was 18 / 19 years old that I felt directionless, irresponsible, powerless and helpless, but looking back into my past – I was in fact making the statement that I am powerless / helpless to change myself / my life in any way, because I was not to blame for who I had become, how I was living and what I was doing with my life up to that point. It was the feeling of standing on a tight-rope – me standing in the centre, my past not being ‘my fault’ and my future also then not being ‘my fault / my responsibility’ – because who/how I was in the present, ‘I was not responsible for’ and because I felt powerless, helpless in my relationship to the past, I so felt this way n the present and so would feel this way about my future.

So, because of these dimensions…and obviously so much more, I simply accepted and believed that who I am is my ‘fate’, ‘cemented’…like, ‘this is it’. But, when I was introduced to the process of writing, self forgiveness – I initially didn’t write as much, but immediately started living it, applying it – in moments assessing my thoughts / emotions, taking that step back, applying forgiveness within myself / out loud and then changing myself…slowly but surely a ‘fire’ started rising within me…like, I started wanting more for myself, I started wanting more for myself out of life, I wanted to better myself in who I am within thought, word and deed…I actually wanted the responsibility for who/how I was in thought, word and deed. Because, with walking my process – I started empowering myself with realising I can change and with change – affect / influence and so direct my relationships with others and my life in general. Realising, knowing and living this…is and has been awesome.

And so, within my process – obviously with walking writing, self forgiveness and then the actual self change in moments and from there when the Portalling opened – I realised that who / how I was…was NOT ‘Natural’, it was never a ‘this is it’, cemented, ‘lost-in-the-hands-of-fate’ situation – but that we only think/believe it’s ‘natural’, because it apparently ‘comes naturally’ when you look at how thoughts and emotions comes up within you. When in fact, it doesn’t happen ‘naturally’ – your thoughts and emotions are programmed into an automated SYSTEM as the Mind Consciousness System that functions based on external and internal stimuli that activates the input-output mechanism, which determines accordingly who you are in moments and what you live. So, this is also what we do through the Portalling with interviews available on EQAFE, through DIP Lite, through DIP Pro: showing you what your MIND in fact is, how your REAL NATURAL AWARENESS had been suppressed / repressed and how to access and eventually LIVE your REAL SELF.

Therefore, the point I’d like to make within this post is to primarily understand, as I have and so many others – that: who/what you are now in relation to the Mind is not ‘natural’…but ‘automated’; we’ve become organic robots instead of LIVING BEINGS and for anyone that can relate to this experience of yourself, where you can’t even conceive of self change and the empowerment that self-responsibility can bring to you within yourself and your life – I would really suggest investigating Desteni, EQAFE, DIP Lite and DIP Pro…where you can SHOW YOURSELF and so SEE for YOURSELF how what you have always believed yourself to be…was never natural / real / true and that you can realise so much more about yourself and life if you’d start becoming the SEED of SELF-POTENTIAL.

Will continue more in the next post…

It’s not the SIZE of the SEED that Counts…: DAY 4

It’s not about the SIZE of the SEED…: DAY 4

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 4)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

Obviously this MOMENT where you step back, access your potential/being/awareness, assess the thoughts and emotions and then CHANGE – the CHANGE PROCESS, is a process in itself as well…and this I will continue with in the next post, together with a practical example of moments during the early years of my process that were significant when I started accessing my potential, my me and started growing as the seed of potential, of awareness…eventually into and as LIFE.

One afternoon, a friend of mine’s 4-year-old asked me to watch a movie with him – The Lorax. As I was watching the movie I could immediately relate two specific dimensions walked within the movie to what we’re walking here in relation to the seed of self-potential; when you become / realise yourself as the seed of potential when you show yourself how you can change. In this post, I will share these two dimensions and how they relate to the seed of self-potential and do suggest watching the movie.

"It's not about what it is. It's about what it can become."

In the movie, there is an interaction between two characters – where the one is holding a seed and the other states “It’s not about what it is. It’s about what it can become”. Essentially meaning that it’s not the SIZE of the seed that is of significance…but what that SEED can BECOME…

Having a look at the SEED of self-POTENTIAL we’re in the process of walking here – I find this to be quite relevant, because when you start walking your process you have to walk it MOMENT by MOMENT. You cannot KNOW who (in your beingness/presence) and how (in your thought, word and deed) you’ll become – because this is not a process that is walked with knowledge only, there is a direct-relationship between knowledge and APPLICATION. Meaning: your self-change process starts small, like a small seed – the MOMENTS where you realise that you can stop participation in thoughts/reactions and behaviour patterns and then actually change within yourself and behaviour in that MOMENT…this is where YOU as the SEED start growing.

So, for your self-potential to become REAL, to be LIVED – there has to be a direct-relationship between knowledge and application/living. The knowledge in this process being writing, self forgiveness (which is the practical process to walk, facilitating change from consciousness to awareness) and then the application/living of what you realised about yourself in how you can change that you could see while walking writing and self forgiveness. So, the process, the platform of ACCESSING the SEED and then GROWING as the seed is HERE – all that you need to do is walk / apply it for yourself…

What many will be able to relate to when it comes to this process is: especially in the beginning – where you really only start with the very, very, very small seed – you cannot immediately see / experience yourself changing, because the change happens gradually as you move yourself and change yourself in thought, word and deed. This is the part where the above statement "It's not about what it is. It's about what it can become" is of significance – because the process of change takes time and patience, and in space and time, as you walk change moment by moment – every moment you apply/live the change in real-time: you as the seed start growing, almost unnoticeable until your being/awareness starts breaking through the mind/consciousness, embodies itself into and as the physical and you can noticeably start seeing/experiencing your self-change based on how you change in your living and general experience.  

I, myself – when I started walking this process, there were moments where I wondered whether I was changing…but it often showed in the most unexpected of ways in the most unpredictable of moments, where my self-change NATURALLY came through based on the dedication and discipline to the SMALL MOMENTS I applied/lived self forgiveness and changed myself in thought, word and deed.

In the next post I will continue with the second dimension that opened up while watching The Lorax movie and then bring all the knowledge and information I shared thus far into practical living examples for you to be able to more practically comprehend how and why this process of change takes time, patience and discipline. Because, if you look at a seed – a seed starts GROWING from WITHIN…it doesn’t ‘look to the future’ in terms of ‘thinking about’ what it’s going to become, nor does it ‘look to the future’ and think about the process it has to walk to reach its utmost potential. This is what we often do within our Minds…we project to the future, look at the process ahead…instead of realising that self-growth of self-potential and the becoming/living of our utmost potential is a process walked from within, moment to moment into and as the without.

The SEED of Self Potential: DAY 3

The SEED of Self Potential: DAY 3

The Desteni of Living – Utmost Potential (Part 3)

The Principle of Realising and Living my Utmost Potential

In this post and posts to come, I am discussing what ‘Realising and Living my Utmost Potential’ practically means – through showing how I have (and still do) live and realise this Principle.

STEP 1: Recognizing my own Potential (Self Forgiveness)

In the next post I will continue with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment Statements – showing how the FIRST INSTANCE of realising that POTENTIAL EXISTS…is where you SHOW YOURSELF you can change, this being the first SEED of SELF POTENTIAL that becomes planted and with being nourished…you will flower / grow into and as your utmost potential…

The first moment I was introduced to my potential…and here I emphasize MY potential, which is something that only I could have shown, seen and so proven to myself: was when I started applying self forgiveness, stopping participation in my thoughts and emotions that I could assess was compromising the experience of myself and so the words I spoke and the actions I lived. There is a ‘shift’ within yourself that happens when you start walking process: even though you have been CONSCIOUS of your thoughts and emotions, how they come through into your words and behaviour – (CONSCIOUS, meaning – you KNOW you think/feel and speak/act what you think / feel, but are not always considerate / AWARE of how exactly the thoughts and emotions affect you, the body and others in your life) – so, this ‘shift’ that happens is where you in a way STEP BACK for a moment and LOOK at your thoughts / emotion for A MOMENT before you participate in them, become them and then speak / act as them.

This ‘shift’ I speak of is that moment where your being connects with its own ‘Awareness’, because our being is merged into the Mind/Consciousness – when you ‘step back’ for a moment, by taking a breath and then LOOK at the thoughts / emotions…this is where you for that moment ‘access’ your being-awareness being able to look at your Mind/Consciousness – the ‘systematized’ version of yourself and ask yourself: “is this who / what I want to be in this moment?”

So, obviously – to be able to ‘see’ thoughts and emotions, you have to walk through a process of getting to know your own mind, the systematized version of yourself and you have to get to know / be able to distinguish / define the various emotions and feelings created by the Mind/Consciousness. This is what DIP Lite and DIP Pro assist and support with: supporting you to understand what thoughts are, how to see them and to understand what emotions and feelings are, how to use your body as a cross-reference for when you experience an emotion / feeling and support yourself to define the ‘energy’.

So, with me walking a process – way in the beginning when I was 19 / 20 years old, learning to see thoughts and define emotions / feelings while at the same time walking writing, forgiveness and corrective application: this is where I for myself could see MY potential – so, I started seeing and realising my potential, through walking this process of self-change.

It was quite profound for me, seeing and realising this – especially when I didn’t even KNOW or couldn’t at ALL SEE that such potential for change exists and more importantly: that I could do it for me. This process of self change is something that ‘belongs to you’, because only you do it with you – you with walking this process realise how alone you really are within yourself, with your own Mind and everything that’s going on in there; yet with the SUPPORT of OTHERS – through writing, speaking and sharing, you in the aloneness also have the momentary bridges you can cross in the relationships you foster with those around you to support you when / as it’s needed.

This SEED of POTENTIAL – that MOMENT when you stop participation in a thought, for a MOMENT BREATHE before you act or speak in emotions / feelings…this MOMENT as SEED really becomes planted within you, by yourself, as yourself as you yourself become this SEED, this POTENTIAL that slowly but surely emerge as you, the more you realise you can DECIDE, you can CHANGE in a moment. Obviously this MOMENT where you step back, access your potential/being/awareness, assess the thoughts and emotions and then CHANGE – the CHANGE PROCESS, is a process in itself as well…and this I will continue with in the next post, together with a practical example of moments during the early years of my process that were significant when I started accessing my potential, my me and started growing as the seed of potential, of awareness…eventually into and as LIFE.

Lastly to understand: the PROCESS to walk is the same for everyONE – the process of KNOW THYSELF, which is to get to know your Mind and through getting to know the Mind, you get to know your REAL self with walking the process of writing, forgiveness and corrective application into and as self CHANGE; however: you will as an INDIVIDUAL, as your BEING that is YOU – discover your unique EXPRESSION through how your BEING RISE as it grows, develops and emerge the more you with self awareness change…how your being rise from within the depths of your Mind that’s suppressed it reach through and come into creation / manifestation in and as your living through and as the physical.