The Rise of Emotion and the Fall of Self
Quantum Time and Physical Space-Time Equilibrium (continued)
Who I am as Patience (continued)
I will continue more
in the next post explaining / sharing the process of how emotional reactions /
response-patterns change / transform to self-expression; and how this process
of walking from the Quantum Time dimensions of Consciousness into and as the
equilibrium of Space
and Time in the Physical – assist and support with understanding what it
means to Live Patience.
I have found that there is a hint of impatience existent –
every time I accept and allow myself to go into an emotional reaction. Where I
do not take a moment to breathe and slowly look at a moment / conversation with
another, but IMMEDIATELY in a quantum moment activate any and every kind of
thought / emotional reaction within me. Thus, we’re going to have a look at
where and how within your day-to-day life – you can start practising the living
of Patience in relation to yourself, a moment and another.
For this post, I would suggest a practical application
process for yourself to observe how Impatience is actually existent in every
and any moment you go into an emotional reaction (I’ll eventually get to the
positive feeling,
but most will be able to prominently relate to emotional reactions / energy
experiences). Observe yourself in moments where you become emotional – whether anxiety,
irritation, resistance, frustration, anger etc. What you’ll notice happens is
that your solar plexus and chest area becomes tight, your upper-body becomes
tense as this overwhelming energy rises up within you. It’s interesting how
with emotional energy – because it is so intense / overwhelming, it creates
this illusion of “rising” on an unconscious-level – which also contributes to
why we sometimes use emotion in situations / conversations, it presents the illusion
of self “rising to the occasion” / “having power to speak up / speak your mind”.
Thus, this is another dimension in relation to emotion that I would suggest
introspecting: the illusion that emotion presents to you in the mind and body
as to having more ‘power’ / ‘strength’ to be able to take on the situation /
person, like the emotional energy “backs you up” in a way; showing that you
cannot stand alone, by yourself and your own words – but need emotional energy
to ‘stand with you’. Additionally within this to see, realise and understand
that it’s not about ‘speaking
your MIND’ – speaking your mind, especially when in emotional reaction – is
speaking reactions, it is then not you, your awareness
speaking. (I will continue expanding on
the difference between speaking your mind and speaking as self in posts to
come)
So, with physically experiencing the emotion rising up
within you and you rising with it further / deeper into the Mind – you will
notice that you in that moment REALLY focus ONLY on how you feel, what you are
thinking; so a complete separation
manifests between you, the moment / situation in reality and then the other
person. This then leads one to start ‘speaking your Mind’ and only perpetuates
conflict / friction in your world / reality in relation to a situation /
another person.
Therefore, for this post – what I would like you to observe
for yourself are these two things:
ONE: how the physical body responds to the emotion coming up
as it rises within you and TWO: how you internally only focus on your own thoughts
and emotions in that moment, as though the thoughts and emotions are a lot more
emphasized / standing out and clear -
really ‘highlighted’, so much so that you cannot take your attention off of it
and it really captivates you and so captures you into/as the Mind, instead of
being here with breath, yourself, the body and the moment in reality to be able
to understand the situation and come up with a practical solution.
Why is it important to be able to observe this / become of
aware of how we respond to thoughts and emotions and what is its relationship
to Impatience? See: because Consciousness exist in ‘quantum time’ – it with
emotion, for example, moves you SO FAST into the Mind and then brings up a lot
of thoughts VERY fast, so you will also become aware of how fast and how many
thoughts will come up in your Mind in the moment of an emotional
reaction. This is to ensure you remain distracted from you, breath and the
physical body – to not see the reality of the situation / moment / yourself and
the other person – but keep on paying attention to your own thoughts and
emotions. So, what happens within this – is: you come to believe
in your own thoughts and reactions about a situation / person, instead of
remaining calm and stable, moving in space-time breathing with the physical
body and directly looking at the situation / person with awareness /
commonsense and an outcome for a solution. It is really, really, really
fascinating how one’s perspective of a situation / other person changes – with taking
responsibility and forgiving
your own thoughts and emotions, calming down and being stable and then instead
looking at the situation, yourself and the other person with stability and
clarity.
This is where Impatience plays a major role – we have not
yet lived / applied the PATIENCE with OURSELVES, to not move so FAST and
IMMEDIATE into the quantum time dimensions of emotional energy / consciousness,
to just take a moment for ourselves, sort out our own thoughts / reactions and
then look at the moment with such clarity and perspective.
One of the main things to understand when it comes to
emotional reactions and then the thoughts / backchats that follows is that:
whatever comes up in your mind – does not define the situation, nor the other
person, but in fact reflects things to you that you have not directed / sorted
out inside yourself. Therefore, before directing situations / people within it –
take responsibility for yourself / your own mind, clear yourself and drop the
veil of consciousness. Then, take a moment – that moment where you breathe and
you’re sure you are clear and then take
responsibility for the moment / the other person by LOOKING at how you are
going to direct the situation / person into and as a practical solution.
In the next post, we’re going to have a look at how all the
points come together, from Impatience to LIVING Patience with self, to how the
quantum time dimensions of the mind and the space-time continuum of the
physical come-together to assist and support in this process of looking at
things / seeing direct; instead of shifting into impatience and so the quantum
time of the Mind/Consciousness that manifest the necessary separation from
yourself and physical reality to perpetuate consequence / compromise instead of
bringing your world to solutions and direction.
