Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 3)

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 3)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

In this next post we’ll continue the Self Forgiveness Process investigating why/how the emotion as Impatience and the feeling as Patience is not the solution to the problem of conflict we create between Time and Sequences of Events.

Self Forgiveness (continued)

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise and understand why and how the emotional and feeling reactions of Impatience and Patience are but momentary ‘band aids’ for the conflict I create within my Mind and Physical Reality in the relationship between Time and Sequences of Events. Where, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the reactions of Patience and Impatience are but a ‘response’ to the conflict I create when sequences of events do not fit into my initial projected ‘tunnel-vision’ time-frame and then I will either go into the feeling of Patience to ‘help me through it’ or I will go into the emotion of Impatience to react to the situation even more. In both instances – reacting in Patience and Impatience, I attempt/try to either control me and/or the situation to get myself through it all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how the reactions of Impatience and Patience cause me to not see the actual source of the problem, which is my internal and external relationship to time and the conflict I am creating when I am not walking equal-to and one-with sequences of events, but instead approach reality in/as separation, through the Mind, within a projected time-frame of seconds, minutes and hours. Therefore, the actual ‘problem’ is this core-relationship between Time and Sequences of Events – as long as I do not sort out this core-relationship: I will forever – when meeting this cross-road between Time and Sequences of Events: set myself up for the reactions of Impatience and/or Patience.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that Patience as a feeling-experience and Impatience as an emotional-experience is thus energetic-forces that I create through the Mind from the conflict between Time and Sequences of Events within the Mind.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ever question this relationship to Time and Sequences of Events that produce the reactions of Patience / Impatience within me – with ever considering whether there might be another way, because I have always simply followed the examples of those that have gone before me and within this believed that ‘this is the way it is’: “when waiting and you’re impatient – calm yourself down with patience” / “when you’re waiting – be patient” / “when you’re waiting and things aren’t going your way according to time – react in impatience”.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how – with looking at Time / Sequences of Events through the eyes of energetic-experiences such as Patience / Impatience: actually blinded me from seeing the actual source of the problem I am facing as the conflict I am creating between Sequences of Events and Time. That this is what we do most of the time in our Minds as well when we’re accessing emotional / feeling reactions/experiences in relation to something/someone that comes up in the Mind – we tend to miss detail, we miss seeing things for ‘what they are / as they are’ and instead see things according to how we experience ourselves –which in fact gives us only a one-dimensional view of what we’re facing. For example, with Time and Sequences of Events: I didn’t initially see that it is in fact this conflict I create in the Mind with trying to force sequences of events into Time (seconds, minutes and hours) and with this ‘forcing’ – I create friction and the friction within myself produced the emotion of Impatience and/or the Feeling of Patience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make Time (seconds, minutes and hours) more than Sequences of Events, where it’s strange how I in any way could conceive that I would be able to control reality’s sequences of events through reacting to them – especially when accessing, for example, Impatience – in a way saying to reality “well, if you will not move according to MY time-frame – then this is who I will become/how I will behave with going into Impatience and it’s YOUR fault”. In this, lol – trying to manipulate reality, in a way, to get MY WAY; not seeing, realising and understanding that – reacting is not going to change anything, but compromise me / who I am and how I behave.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always try and ‘fight’ reality with Impatience or try and ‘wait’ for reality with Patience – never walking here, WITH reality in equality and oneness and directing myself within and as it; where going into the reactions of fighting it with Impatience or waiting for it in Patience is me actually making myself powerless to my own life’s walk/movement in reality, because I am trying to fight against / wait for the very reality / sequences of events in/as which I am supposed to direct myself to create my life / walk my life in/as. Because reality / the external world is not going to create my life FOR me – nor is it going to respond to me fighting against it – I have to be the one that creates/moves me, and I cannot create my life / move me in/as this real world as long as I am approaching it with internal conflict / emotional and feeling reactions in the Mind.

In the next post, we’ll continue with how to change the relationship between Time and Sequences of Events from reacting to it in Patience / Impatience – to directing self within and as Time and Sequences of Events where no emotional/feeling reactions are necessary. Then, finally – we can have a look at what Patience would mean as a Living Word that is not limited to/as the definition of Time ONLY…

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 2)

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 2)

We’ll continue with the Self Forgiveness process in the next post, expanding more on the two equations above with regards to how to see one’s relationship to reality through the eyes of the physical and not through the eyes of Time – and what this practically entails in our day-to-day living.

Self Forgiveness (continued)

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I have been and am still self-responsible for the reactions of patience and impatience I create within my Mind and Body when I am confronted with a person/situation involving time – and I calculate the procedure/process according to time (seconds, minutes, hours) in the Mind, instead of first practically considering the relationship between sequences of events and time. This means, me practically walking a physical time-line and from there calculating the time a particular person / situation would take; but if I try and control sequences of events in physical space-time by trying to force it into/as seconds/minutes/hours – this sets me up for reactions.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration that when I calculate time – that I often do not take many variables into consideration, because: in my Mind – it’s only me, the appointment and time that exists, for example, and so I will calculate time only within this context; instead of considering the other variables of other people and many other contingencies that may be involved in the relationship between me and an appointment. The consequence of this is that I calculate time and sequences of events within a tunnel-vision perspective and then when all the things happen that I did not take into account, causing the time-calculations I made in tunnel-vision perspective to be way out – I set myself up for reactions.

An example:

I make an appointment and I consider the amount of time it usually takes me to get to the appointment, I consider the amount of time it usually takes me to wait in the waiting-room and how long the appointment itself will be. This then encompasses my ‘tunnel-vision’ starting point, because I am not considering probable contingencies such as traffic, other people before my appointment time being late / some appointments of others before me extending their appointment time. So many times, all the contingencies / variables I didn’t take into account – happens at once: running late at home, traffic on the way, the person with whom I have an appointment is running late and so everything domino-effects within/throughout the day where everything else becomes extended.

In this, if I accept/allow myself to in the Mind – hold onto my initial tunnel-vision calculation with all the sequences of events in physical reality changing: I am going into conflict with physical space-time sequences of events and I am going to try and ‘fight my way through’ all the contingencies / variables that took place that caused my initial time-calculation to be way off. Then I will try and ‘force my way through’ the physical sequences of events – pushing for things to move faster, because I am trying to have the sequences of events fit into my Mind’s time-calculation: not seeing/realising/understanding that I do not have control over how other physical things / people move – so, trying to force anything will be useless. Instead, what I should do – is from the first moment of change, such as running late at home: I should adjust my time-calculations, when something happens on the way – I should adjust my time-calculations again and so-forth. In this process, I moving with physical-reality sequences of events – instead of AGAINST it, trying to fight/force my way through it if/as I was still holding onto my tunnel-vision time-calculations.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I would use the emotion of Impatience and the feeling of Patience as an ‘balancing crutch’ in the conflict I create within my relationship between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical as follows: as the sequences of events do not fit into my Mind’s time-calculations – I start reacting within/as Impatience, because things are taking longer than initially predicted. In/as this Impatience-reaction – I then use this emotional force to try and control the outcome of sequences of events, to force it into/as my Mind’s time-frame. Sometimes – the emotion of Impatience accumulates to irritation/frustration and even anger – using this to manipulate / blame others for why things aren’t going MY way. Or, other times – I would balance the emotion of Impatience with the feeling of Patience to attempt/try to stabilize myself within this conflict I am creating between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how accessing/using the emotion/feeling of Impatience and Patience is not the Solution to the problem I am creating for myself as the conflict between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical – it merely serves as a bridge for a moment to get me through this conflict.

In this next post we’ll continue the Self Forgiveness Process investigating why/how the emotion as Impatience and the feeling as Patience is not the solution to the problem of conflict we create between Time and Sequences of Events.

Sequence of Events vs. Time

Sequence of Events vs. Time

 

Who I am as Patience (continued)

In the next post, we’ll continue exploring this relationship to TIME – how the relationship between Patience, Impatience and Time in the Mind has been programmed – when physical reality in fact moves through ‘sequences of events’ that we measure with “time” in relation to clocks / seconds / minutes / hours. But, what happens with the activation / trigger of the REACTIONS of patience / impatience is that: our Mind focuses on the mechanism we use to measure space and time sequences of events and we don’t often take a lot of factors in reality into consideration when we react in Impatience.

Writing (continued)

What I have realised is that the following equation creates reactions of Impatience / Patience - as follows:

Time (seconds, minutes, hours) + Event = Reactions of Patience/Impatience. Meaning: we often when waiting for something / someone – would look at the time and/or we before-hand projected the amount of time something / someone will be taking; and when it doesn’t happen within the given time - we react in Impatience and/or (lol) we ‘keep calm and patient’ for as long as we can possibly hold out.

So, what is definitive here is that – the reactions of Patience and Impatience is in relation to how we in the Mind connect sequences of events to seconds, minutes and/or hours. Not realising how, for most of the time with waiting for things/people – there is a lot in the reality sequence of events we may not have taken into consideration which leads to the sequence of events moving slower and thus taking up more time as seconds, minutes and hours.

But, with Time (seconds, minutes and hours) existing in our Mind – we often tend to let such time-calculation take precedence over considering how long sequences of events may take / play out in this real world / reality. Then, we look at reality movement as sequences of events through time-movement (seconds, minutes, hours) in the MIND and this will obviously cause reactions within us as we’re trying to take reality / sequences of events and ‘fit it into’ ‘time movement in the mind’ within seconds, minutes and hours. Instead of looking through the eyes of reality FIRST, the sequences of events and then accordingly determining the time it would take – taking into consideration that there may be MANY variables that one may not be able to predict with fitting sequences of events into time; and with that consideration: one should be able to meet up with a person / prepare for an event with realising that if/as sequences of events do not play out according to time – one simply remain stable / re-asses the new time-frame and continue practically walking the physical in self-stability.

So here, the equation then changes to Sequences of Events + Event/Person = Having the ability to reassess the time-frame as a solution to the change in sequences of events/time and remain stable within self. It’s interesting then with having a look at both equations and how much the starting point will then determine the end-result / ‘answer’. Let’s have a look at the two equations again:

Time (seconds, minutes, hours) + Event = Reactions of Patience/Impatience

Sequences of Events + Event/Person = Having the ability to reassess the time-frame as a solution to the change in sequences of events/time and remain stable within self

In the first equation, with having Time as the starting point within our Minds and we try and take the Event and ‘force it into time’ – more often than not, the event takes longer than anticipated and so we react, because our external real reality didn’t play out accordingly to our internal mind-reality’s projection. We’d react because we initially believed our Mind Reality’s Time assessment MORE than Physical Reality’s sequences of events, we placed MIND over MATTER and so we’re react in/as our Minds.

However, within the second equation – with having sequences of events as the starting point and us being aligned within Physical Reality – we can move WITH physical reality, in equality and oneness. Meaning, we assess the time-frame for sequences of events, with taking into consideration the unpredictable / contingencies that may step forth and then we start walking a point in real-time so that: if/as something does happen – we simply re-calibrate the time-frame, re-establish our relationship to reality. In this, self remains here, stable, in reality and moving with the sequences of events and time frame within that – in this process, there is no need for reactions of Impatience / Patience.

So, the point we then have to look at is: if one can simply walk within stability, in real-time, in relation to events / appointments with seeing/realising and understanding how the starting-point of Time is what created the reactions of Patience and Impatience: how does this then change our relationship to the words? Do these words then only exist because we had created Time in our Minds and sometimes tried to force it onto physical reality, which lead to producing the reactions of Patience/Impatience? How can we then use Patience and Impatience practically / constructively where they do not become points we use to react within, but assist and support us within our Practical Living in our day-to-day experiences?

We’ll continue with the Self Forgiveness process in the next post, expanding more on the two equations above with regards to how to see one’s relationship to reality through the eyes of the physical and not through the eyes of Time – and what this practically entails in our day-to-day living.

Patience and Time (Part 2)

Patience and Time (Part 2)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how I have defined the words Patience and Impatience in relation to Time and substantiated the words Patience and Impatience with/as emotional/feeling energy – in so-doing, not seeing/realising and understanding how I have limited myself in relationship to the words as existing within/being tied to Time and Positive/Negative Energy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand the Nature of this self-imposed Limitation in relation to Patience/Impatience being defined in relation to Time and substantiated with emotional/feeling energy where: Every moment I am faced with Time – I will automatically REACT in either Patience as positive energy or Impatience as negative energy. In this, I in fact disempower and so limit myself in relation to time within this Physical Reality through my Mind/Consciousness reaction of Patience/Impatience – which means, Time-itself has power over me, Patience/Impatience has power over me – because Time, Patience and Impatience changes who I am in a moment of interaction within/as physical reality.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how I am not self-aware in moments where I react in Patience/Impatience and/or where Impatience build to such an extent that it discharge within my Mind and Body – because this relationship to time is already an existent-program within my Mind that will just automatically activate and essentially instruct me to either React in Patience/Impatience – where, predominantly, I find that I am reacting in Impatience and will most of the time have the Impatience take over/possess my mind/body/being and control/change who I am/how I am in/as such moments.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise and understand how I have defined/substantiated the words Patience/Impatience within/as emotional (negative) and feeling (positive) energy – where I have an EXPERIENCE in relation to the words and the experience gets triggered/activated within my MIND, the Mind within/as which I have conveniently programmed words with definitions/energies so that all I have to do when an events takes place in my external world/reality is “follow the energy / become the energy” and so I create an experience of myself in moments of interacting in my physical world/with others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to within this see/realise/understand how these experiences only takes places IN MY MIND – and from my Mind will then flow through / into creation within my physical body and so determine my thoughts/words/deeds. So, it’s like the words Patience/Impatience are individual entities/forces in my Mind – ‘waiting to come out and take over’ my Mind/Body. So the question within this is: where am I within this all? Where is my self-awareness if all that I am doing is ‘channelling’ words and their energies / experiences through my Mind and into/as my Body?

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that with having a look at how the words Patience/Impatience more belongs to the ENERGY it produce within my Mind and the fact that the words functions as Reactions to my external environment: that I have to investigate / have a look at who I am as the words Impatience and Patience without the energy, and without limiting it to ONLY TIME, but how the words can assist/support me within and as my practical living process in/as this real physical world.

In the next post, we’re continue exploring this relationship to TIME – how the relationship between Patience, Impatience and Time in the Mind has been programmed – when physical reality in fact moves through ‘sequences of events’ that we measure with “time” in relation to clocks / seconds / minutes / hours. But, what happens with the activation / trigger of the REACTIONS of patience / impatience is that: our Mind focuses on the mechanism we use to measure space and time sequences of events and we don’t often take a lot of factors in reality into consideration when we react in Impatience.