Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 2)

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 2)

We’ll continue with the Self Forgiveness process in the next post, expanding more on the two equations above with regards to how to see one’s relationship to reality through the eyes of the physical and not through the eyes of Time – and what this practically entails in our day-to-day living.

Self Forgiveness (continued)

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I have been and am still self-responsible for the reactions of patience and impatience I create within my Mind and Body when I am confronted with a person/situation involving time – and I calculate the procedure/process according to time (seconds, minutes, hours) in the Mind, instead of first practically considering the relationship between sequences of events and time. This means, me practically walking a physical time-line and from there calculating the time a particular person / situation would take; but if I try and control sequences of events in physical space-time by trying to force it into/as seconds/minutes/hours – this sets me up for reactions.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration that when I calculate time – that I often do not take many variables into consideration, because: in my Mind – it’s only me, the appointment and time that exists, for example, and so I will calculate time only within this context; instead of considering the other variables of other people and many other contingencies that may be involved in the relationship between me and an appointment. The consequence of this is that I calculate time and sequences of events within a tunnel-vision perspective and then when all the things happen that I did not take into account, causing the time-calculations I made in tunnel-vision perspective to be way out – I set myself up for reactions.

An example:

I make an appointment and I consider the amount of time it usually takes me to get to the appointment, I consider the amount of time it usually takes me to wait in the waiting-room and how long the appointment itself will be. This then encompasses my ‘tunnel-vision’ starting point, because I am not considering probable contingencies such as traffic, other people before my appointment time being late / some appointments of others before me extending their appointment time. So many times, all the contingencies / variables I didn’t take into account – happens at once: running late at home, traffic on the way, the person with whom I have an appointment is running late and so everything domino-effects within/throughout the day where everything else becomes extended.

In this, if I accept/allow myself to in the Mind – hold onto my initial tunnel-vision calculation with all the sequences of events in physical reality changing: I am going into conflict with physical space-time sequences of events and I am going to try and ‘fight my way through’ all the contingencies / variables that took place that caused my initial time-calculation to be way off. Then I will try and ‘force my way through’ the physical sequences of events – pushing for things to move faster, because I am trying to have the sequences of events fit into my Mind’s time-calculation: not seeing/realising/understanding that I do not have control over how other physical things / people move – so, trying to force anything will be useless. Instead, what I should do – is from the first moment of change, such as running late at home: I should adjust my time-calculations, when something happens on the way – I should adjust my time-calculations again and so-forth. In this process, I moving with physical-reality sequences of events – instead of AGAINST it, trying to fight/force my way through it if/as I was still holding onto my tunnel-vision time-calculations.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I would use the emotion of Impatience and the feeling of Patience as an ‘balancing crutch’ in the conflict I create within my relationship between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical as follows: as the sequences of events do not fit into my Mind’s time-calculations – I start reacting within/as Impatience, because things are taking longer than initially predicted. In/as this Impatience-reaction – I then use this emotional force to try and control the outcome of sequences of events, to force it into/as my Mind’s time-frame. Sometimes – the emotion of Impatience accumulates to irritation/frustration and even anger – using this to manipulate / blame others for why things aren’t going MY way. Or, other times – I would balance the emotion of Impatience with the feeling of Patience to attempt/try to stabilize myself within this conflict I am creating between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how accessing/using the emotion/feeling of Impatience and Patience is not the Solution to the problem I am creating for myself as the conflict between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical – it merely serves as a bridge for a moment to get me through this conflict.

In this next post we’ll continue the Self Forgiveness Process investigating why/how the emotion as Impatience and the feeling as Patience is not the solution to the problem of conflict we create between Time and Sequences of Events.

Sequence of Events vs. Time

Sequence of Events vs. Time

 

Who I am as Patience (continued)

In the next post, we’ll continue exploring this relationship to TIME – how the relationship between Patience, Impatience and Time in the Mind has been programmed – when physical reality in fact moves through ‘sequences of events’ that we measure with “time” in relation to clocks / seconds / minutes / hours. But, what happens with the activation / trigger of the REACTIONS of patience / impatience is that: our Mind focuses on the mechanism we use to measure space and time sequences of events and we don’t often take a lot of factors in reality into consideration when we react in Impatience.

Writing (continued)

What I have realised is that the following equation creates reactions of Impatience / Patience - as follows:

Time (seconds, minutes, hours) + Event = Reactions of Patience/Impatience. Meaning: we often when waiting for something / someone – would look at the time and/or we before-hand projected the amount of time something / someone will be taking; and when it doesn’t happen within the given time - we react in Impatience and/or (lol) we ‘keep calm and patient’ for as long as we can possibly hold out.

So, what is definitive here is that – the reactions of Patience and Impatience is in relation to how we in the Mind connect sequences of events to seconds, minutes and/or hours. Not realising how, for most of the time with waiting for things/people – there is a lot in the reality sequence of events we may not have taken into consideration which leads to the sequence of events moving slower and thus taking up more time as seconds, minutes and hours.

But, with Time (seconds, minutes and hours) existing in our Mind – we often tend to let such time-calculation take precedence over considering how long sequences of events may take / play out in this real world / reality. Then, we look at reality movement as sequences of events through time-movement (seconds, minutes, hours) in the MIND and this will obviously cause reactions within us as we’re trying to take reality / sequences of events and ‘fit it into’ ‘time movement in the mind’ within seconds, minutes and hours. Instead of looking through the eyes of reality FIRST, the sequences of events and then accordingly determining the time it would take – taking into consideration that there may be MANY variables that one may not be able to predict with fitting sequences of events into time; and with that consideration: one should be able to meet up with a person / prepare for an event with realising that if/as sequences of events do not play out according to time – one simply remain stable / re-asses the new time-frame and continue practically walking the physical in self-stability.

So here, the equation then changes to Sequences of Events + Event/Person = Having the ability to reassess the time-frame as a solution to the change in sequences of events/time and remain stable within self. It’s interesting then with having a look at both equations and how much the starting point will then determine the end-result / ‘answer’. Let’s have a look at the two equations again:

Time (seconds, minutes, hours) + Event = Reactions of Patience/Impatience

Sequences of Events + Event/Person = Having the ability to reassess the time-frame as a solution to the change in sequences of events/time and remain stable within self

In the first equation, with having Time as the starting point within our Minds and we try and take the Event and ‘force it into time’ – more often than not, the event takes longer than anticipated and so we react, because our external real reality didn’t play out accordingly to our internal mind-reality’s projection. We’d react because we initially believed our Mind Reality’s Time assessment MORE than Physical Reality’s sequences of events, we placed MIND over MATTER and so we’re react in/as our Minds.

However, within the second equation – with having sequences of events as the starting point and us being aligned within Physical Reality – we can move WITH physical reality, in equality and oneness. Meaning, we assess the time-frame for sequences of events, with taking into consideration the unpredictable / contingencies that may step forth and then we start walking a point in real-time so that: if/as something does happen – we simply re-calibrate the time-frame, re-establish our relationship to reality. In this, self remains here, stable, in reality and moving with the sequences of events and time frame within that – in this process, there is no need for reactions of Impatience / Patience.

So, the point we then have to look at is: if one can simply walk within stability, in real-time, in relation to events / appointments with seeing/realising and understanding how the starting-point of Time is what created the reactions of Patience and Impatience: how does this then change our relationship to the words? Do these words then only exist because we had created Time in our Minds and sometimes tried to force it onto physical reality, which lead to producing the reactions of Patience/Impatience? How can we then use Patience and Impatience practically / constructively where they do not become points we use to react within, but assist and support us within our Practical Living in our day-to-day experiences?

We’ll continue with the Self Forgiveness process in the next post, expanding more on the two equations above with regards to how to see one’s relationship to reality through the eyes of the physical and not through the eyes of Time – and what this practically entails in our day-to-day living.

Who I am as Patience (Part Two)

Who I am as Patience (Part Two)

Self-Forgiveness: Investigating and taking Self-Responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed in/as my relationship to Impatience – be able to empower myself / gift myself with the ability to change me

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ever question / investigate what I am in fact doing to myself, my physical body in moments when I react in Impatience with the extent to which my body tenses-up / stresses / my heart-rate escalating / my breathing becoming faster and a general uncomfortable physical-experience emerging within and as me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in such moments, always try and ‘get myself out of the situation / move myself away from the person’ that I blame for my Impatience-reaction and have always used such blame towards something/someone and me moving away/getting away from the person/situation as the ‘remedy’ for/as my Impatience. Instead of seeing/realising/understanding that: a Situation in itself / Person themselves cannot in any means create Impatience / the reaction and physical experience thereof inside me. I am creating it myself, participating within it myself and so bearing the consequences of it myself in and as my own body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how within and as Impatience, the longer I accept and allow myself to participate in it in my Mind and stay inside it within my Mind – the more emotions adds up, such as anger / frustration / irritation – which I usually project/blame to/towards something/someone else as being the cause/source/origin for the Impatience in my Mind. Not seeing/realising/understanding the commonsense within and as this: how in any way can an external person/situation implant Impatience into my mind, my body – if it is only me, as the mind in/as my own body???

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how – in moments of Impatience, I am so much more preoccupied with the emotion and what thoughts/backchat/projections in my Mind the emotions produces: that I in that moment do not see/feel and is so not aware of what this energy/emotion of/as Impatience is in fact doing to/as my physical body. That I have not in such moments considered the physical body’s position within/as this emotion I am producing through the Mind/Consciousness in/as my own Physical Body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how – in moments of Impatience, the relationship to blame/projection in my thoughts/imagination/backchat takes precedence over my awareness, my physical body; where I am so busy reacting and blaming – I do not notice who I in fact become in such moments and how consequential my thoughts/imagination/backchat can be in my mind with blaming/projecting my Impatience onto/towards another/a situation.

Where, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise and understand that: blaming/projecting my Impatience I create in my own Mind – is not a solution to the point/problem I am facing in a real physical moment/interaction/scenario. All that blame/projection within/as Impatience and all other emotional-reactions that comes up does – is compromise me, my body and so my relationship/potential relationship with another if/as I take out my Impatience I created onto another in word/deed and actually domino-effect more consequence into the physical world/relationship with others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand how I domino-effect my acceptances/allowances in my own Mind into/as creating consequences within/as my physical world/reality; where: The first domino starts with the Impatience, and then I build the next domino where I start reacting to the emotional-energy of impatience with all sorts of thoughts/imaginations/backchats that spiral out of control – and with every thought and emotional-reaction that continues, I lay more and more and more dominoes – lining them all up within and as me. Until eventually – this force of/as emotional-energy builds to such an extent in the body – that I exert it out to/towards the person/situation I blamed / projected the reactions I created in my own Mind onto/towards; and then the dominos all start falling into/as/towards the physical world/reality when/as I speak/act-out my own creation of reactions/thought processes within/as my Mind.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how it is that it is in fact all ‘me, myself and I’ ONLY that is responsible for the Impatience I experience in the Mind and the Body – and how I have not seen one instance when I became Impatient, that it in any way ‘solved’ the situation/relationship to the other person: but to only create emotional reactions in my Mind and consequences for others in my world/reality.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ever investigate/question: why it is that I always go into this reaction of Impatience towards people/situations in moments – and that this is an existent repetitive-pattern/-habit that I participate within/as; where I have never considered ‘another way’ / ‘different way’ as Solution for ‘who I am’ when I am faced with moments/interactions that do not turn out as I had planned/predicted.

We’ll continue more in the next post with investigating Impatience – especially in relation to how Impatience and also Patience is defined in relation to “time” within our Minds, when there is in fact much more involved within/as Patience /Impatience when it comes to how we define it/live it within our Minds, through our Physical Bodies into creation within/as our Physical World/Reality.