From Fighting time to Walking with Time (Part Two)

From Fighting time to Walking with Time (Part Two)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

Self-Commitment Statements (continued)

I commit myself to show how – this change in the relationship to Time and Sequences of Events: consists of practical solutions that allow me to change and direct myself in reality. Previously: I would always react the moment Time and Sequences of Events do not align/meet as I anticipated. This reaction would be either in Patience/Impatience – where I would often find that, even though I say “I am Patient” – the truth is: “I am patiently, impatiently waiting”. Therefore, with keeping things practical – projecting my day into/as all possible outcomes and to simply re-align myself / re-position myself within Time and Sequences of Events: gives me the ability to decide who I am in relationship to time and in relationship to sequences of events. Herein, I direct myself within and as Time and Sequences of Events and remain stable within this directive principle. If I were to react to Time and Sequences of Events – in this separation, I cannot direct myself, time and sequences of events, because I am so busy in my Mind with emotions/feelings that I cannot see any practical solutions.

I commit myself to show how – letting go of the emotional/feeling reactions of Patience / Impatience: allows me to see practical solutions in relation to my world/reality, such as with Time and Sequences of events - where I do not need emotional/feeling reactions to be able to function / live and direct/take responsibility for who I am in relationship to my world/reality. If I had accepted and allowed myself to remain within the emotional/feeling reactions of Patience / Impatience: I would never have seen this practical solution to my relationship with Time and Sequences of Events. Therefore, I commit myself to always – when I am confronted with the unpredictable in relation to Time and Sequences of Events not aligning as I had initially predicted: to ensure I stabilize myself, having no emotional/feeling reactions - but instead find solutions so that I can direct myself in my world with time and sequences of events and not be controlled by my emotional/feeling reactions in the Mind.

I commit to assist and support myself to – when and as I in a moment find I even start going into an emotional/feeling reaction in relation to time and sequences of events, apply preventative measures as I know myself and my relationship to reactions so well already, that: the moment I accept and allow the energy to rise within my Mind and Body, it very quickly takes over. Therefore, I need to in a moment be here, be physical, stabilize myself with and as Breathing to ensure I move my awareness into and as the physical to not accept/allow myself to get caught up in the emotions/feelings and immediately move my attention to formulate a practical solution to the changes in time and sequences of events. Therefore, I commit myself to – when and as I start physically feeling the sensation of energy rising up in my solar plexus – before it becomes overwhelming, already in that moment apply breathing, speaking the commit statement aloud / aloud within myself as: “I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in this moment want to go into energy. I commit myself to breathe, stabilize myself right here, right now and establish a practical solution instead” – and then I immediately establish a solution once I in that moment released the energy and stabilized into/as the body.

I commit myself to show how such practical application in relation to Time and Sequences of Events – where we would often react, becomes an awesome test-ground to direct oneself in relation to emotions/feelings; to not give in, but instead remain stable in the physical and practise becoming the directive principle of oneself within and without. In this process, one then stop and change the tendency of the mind’s emotions/feelings to direct oneself / the situation at hand – which only produce more internal and external conflict. Whereas, with directing the emotions/feelings, stabilizing in the physical and clearing one’s awareness to assess reality / the situation effectively – here on formulate and have the power to direct one’s world/reality into liveable, practical solutions. Therefore, I commit myself to assist and support myself to utilize these moments of reactions to Time and Sequences of events to PRACTISE me stabilizing myself into the physical through stopping participation in emotions/feelings and learn what it means to actually direct oneself/one’s world / sequences of events with Awareness – instead of through emotional/feeling reactions in the Mind/Consciousness.

I commit myself to see/realise/understand that this process will take practise – but, I commit myself to dedicate myself to this practical application process and decision to stop and change my emotional/feeling reactions to time and sequences of events, as I see/realise/understand that this will also assist/support with strengthening my resolve in other endeavours of stopping/changing my relationship to emotional/feeling reactions and instead EXPRESS who I am through/as the Physical; therefore, walking the process of reaction to self-expression.

In this next post, we’ll continue with exploring how the emotional/feeling reactions of Impatience/Patience to Time and sequences of events change to Self Expression in the Physical and what Self Expression will emerge with stopping/changing such reactions.

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 2)

Sequence of Events vs. Time (Part 2)

We’ll continue with the Self Forgiveness process in the next post, expanding more on the two equations above with regards to how to see one’s relationship to reality through the eyes of the physical and not through the eyes of Time – and what this practically entails in our day-to-day living.

Self Forgiveness (continued)

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I have been and am still self-responsible for the reactions of patience and impatience I create within my Mind and Body when I am confronted with a person/situation involving time – and I calculate the procedure/process according to time (seconds, minutes, hours) in the Mind, instead of first practically considering the relationship between sequences of events and time. This means, me practically walking a physical time-line and from there calculating the time a particular person / situation would take; but if I try and control sequences of events in physical space-time by trying to force it into/as seconds/minutes/hours – this sets me up for reactions.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration that when I calculate time – that I often do not take many variables into consideration, because: in my Mind – it’s only me, the appointment and time that exists, for example, and so I will calculate time only within this context; instead of considering the other variables of other people and many other contingencies that may be involved in the relationship between me and an appointment. The consequence of this is that I calculate time and sequences of events within a tunnel-vision perspective and then when all the things happen that I did not take into account, causing the time-calculations I made in tunnel-vision perspective to be way out – I set myself up for reactions.

An example:

I make an appointment and I consider the amount of time it usually takes me to get to the appointment, I consider the amount of time it usually takes me to wait in the waiting-room and how long the appointment itself will be. This then encompasses my ‘tunnel-vision’ starting point, because I am not considering probable contingencies such as traffic, other people before my appointment time being late / some appointments of others before me extending their appointment time. So many times, all the contingencies / variables I didn’t take into account – happens at once: running late at home, traffic on the way, the person with whom I have an appointment is running late and so everything domino-effects within/throughout the day where everything else becomes extended.

In this, if I accept/allow myself to in the Mind – hold onto my initial tunnel-vision calculation with all the sequences of events in physical reality changing: I am going into conflict with physical space-time sequences of events and I am going to try and ‘fight my way through’ all the contingencies / variables that took place that caused my initial time-calculation to be way off. Then I will try and ‘force my way through’ the physical sequences of events – pushing for things to move faster, because I am trying to have the sequences of events fit into my Mind’s time-calculation: not seeing/realising/understanding that I do not have control over how other physical things / people move – so, trying to force anything will be useless. Instead, what I should do – is from the first moment of change, such as running late at home: I should adjust my time-calculations, when something happens on the way – I should adjust my time-calculations again and so-forth. In this process, I moving with physical-reality sequences of events – instead of AGAINST it, trying to fight/force my way through it if/as I was still holding onto my tunnel-vision time-calculations.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I would use the emotion of Impatience and the feeling of Patience as an ‘balancing crutch’ in the conflict I create within my relationship between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical as follows: as the sequences of events do not fit into my Mind’s time-calculations – I start reacting within/as Impatience, because things are taking longer than initially predicted. In/as this Impatience-reaction – I then use this emotional force to try and control the outcome of sequences of events, to force it into/as my Mind’s time-frame. Sometimes – the emotion of Impatience accumulates to irritation/frustration and even anger – using this to manipulate / blame others for why things aren’t going MY way. Or, other times – I would balance the emotion of Impatience with the feeling of Patience to attempt/try to stabilize myself within this conflict I am creating between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical.

In this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how accessing/using the emotion/feeling of Impatience and Patience is not the Solution to the problem I am creating for myself as the conflict between Time in the Mind and sequences of events in the Physical – it merely serves as a bridge for a moment to get me through this conflict.

In this next post we’ll continue the Self Forgiveness Process investigating why/how the emotion as Impatience and the feeling as Patience is not the solution to the problem of conflict we create between Time and Sequences of Events.

Sequence of Events vs. Time

Sequence of Events vs. Time

 

Who I am as Patience (continued)

In the next post, we’ll continue exploring this relationship to TIME – how the relationship between Patience, Impatience and Time in the Mind has been programmed – when physical reality in fact moves through ‘sequences of events’ that we measure with “time” in relation to clocks / seconds / minutes / hours. But, what happens with the activation / trigger of the REACTIONS of patience / impatience is that: our Mind focuses on the mechanism we use to measure space and time sequences of events and we don’t often take a lot of factors in reality into consideration when we react in Impatience.

Writing (continued)

What I have realised is that the following equation creates reactions of Impatience / Patience - as follows:

Time (seconds, minutes, hours) + Event = Reactions of Patience/Impatience. Meaning: we often when waiting for something / someone – would look at the time and/or we before-hand projected the amount of time something / someone will be taking; and when it doesn’t happen within the given time - we react in Impatience and/or (lol) we ‘keep calm and patient’ for as long as we can possibly hold out.

So, what is definitive here is that – the reactions of Patience and Impatience is in relation to how we in the Mind connect sequences of events to seconds, minutes and/or hours. Not realising how, for most of the time with waiting for things/people – there is a lot in the reality sequence of events we may not have taken into consideration which leads to the sequence of events moving slower and thus taking up more time as seconds, minutes and hours.

But, with Time (seconds, minutes and hours) existing in our Mind – we often tend to let such time-calculation take precedence over considering how long sequences of events may take / play out in this real world / reality. Then, we look at reality movement as sequences of events through time-movement (seconds, minutes, hours) in the MIND and this will obviously cause reactions within us as we’re trying to take reality / sequences of events and ‘fit it into’ ‘time movement in the mind’ within seconds, minutes and hours. Instead of looking through the eyes of reality FIRST, the sequences of events and then accordingly determining the time it would take – taking into consideration that there may be MANY variables that one may not be able to predict with fitting sequences of events into time; and with that consideration: one should be able to meet up with a person / prepare for an event with realising that if/as sequences of events do not play out according to time – one simply remain stable / re-asses the new time-frame and continue practically walking the physical in self-stability.

So here, the equation then changes to Sequences of Events + Event/Person = Having the ability to reassess the time-frame as a solution to the change in sequences of events/time and remain stable within self. It’s interesting then with having a look at both equations and how much the starting point will then determine the end-result / ‘answer’. Let’s have a look at the two equations again:

Time (seconds, minutes, hours) + Event = Reactions of Patience/Impatience

Sequences of Events + Event/Person = Having the ability to reassess the time-frame as a solution to the change in sequences of events/time and remain stable within self

In the first equation, with having Time as the starting point within our Minds and we try and take the Event and ‘force it into time’ – more often than not, the event takes longer than anticipated and so we react, because our external real reality didn’t play out accordingly to our internal mind-reality’s projection. We’d react because we initially believed our Mind Reality’s Time assessment MORE than Physical Reality’s sequences of events, we placed MIND over MATTER and so we’re react in/as our Minds.

However, within the second equation – with having sequences of events as the starting point and us being aligned within Physical Reality – we can move WITH physical reality, in equality and oneness. Meaning, we assess the time-frame for sequences of events, with taking into consideration the unpredictable / contingencies that may step forth and then we start walking a point in real-time so that: if/as something does happen – we simply re-calibrate the time-frame, re-establish our relationship to reality. In this, self remains here, stable, in reality and moving with the sequences of events and time frame within that – in this process, there is no need for reactions of Impatience / Patience.

So, the point we then have to look at is: if one can simply walk within stability, in real-time, in relation to events / appointments with seeing/realising and understanding how the starting-point of Time is what created the reactions of Patience and Impatience: how does this then change our relationship to the words? Do these words then only exist because we had created Time in our Minds and sometimes tried to force it onto physical reality, which lead to producing the reactions of Patience/Impatience? How can we then use Patience and Impatience practically / constructively where they do not become points we use to react within, but assist and support us within our Practical Living in our day-to-day experiences?

We’ll continue with the Self Forgiveness process in the next post, expanding more on the two equations above with regards to how to see one’s relationship to reality through the eyes of the physical and not through the eyes of Time – and what this practically entails in our day-to-day living.

Patience and Time (Part 1)

Patience and Time (Part 1)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

We’ll continue more in the next post with investigating Impatience – especially in relation to how Impatience and also Patience is defined in relation to “time” within our Minds, when there is in fact much more involved within/as Patience /Impatience when it comes to how we define it/live it within our Minds, through our Physical Bodies into creation within/as our Physical World/Reality.

Writing (continued)

Let’s have a look at some questions: How can I practically live Patience? How can I define Patience in such a way that it has a structure/foundation within its definition so that I can implement it in my day-to-day living?

The reason I am asking these questions is because: I can define Impatience for myself – it has a definitive mental and physical reference/experience. However, with Patience – all I at this stage can define it as, is: “being calm/steady when waiting and to not become Impatient”. So, what I have looked at regarding the current definition of Patience is that: Impatience is a circle and out of that circle – another circle emerge, which would be Patience. Thus, Patience flows out of Impatience. But, what I have found within this relationship of Impatience and Patience being interconnected is that they create a Polarity: to be ‘Patient’ one first has to go through Impatience.

Therefore, we have created an emotional and feeling / negative and positive polarity-relationship to Patience and Impatience – with Patience the positive-feeling and Impatience the negative-emotion. With understanding how the Mind Consciousness System operate/function – Polarities always balances each other out. So, as long as Patience and Impatience is connected to emotions/feelings as positive/negative energy in the Mind, is exists as a polarity in the Mind and with that – a polarity that will always try and balance itself out. When you start with Impatience – reacting emotionally in/as Impatience, then you can balance that emotional/negative reaction with Patience as a ‘positive feeling’ that takes over the Mind and Body and then one ‘settle for a moment’. Or, at times – it doesn’t ‘balance out’ from Impatience to Patience and the Impatience reactions/emotional state in the Mind and Body continues building until it ‘discharges’ in the Mind and the Body and one act/speak/exert the accumulated energy out into the world/onto another person.

The next question within this is: does Impatience and Patience then really in fact exist? Meaning, if we look ‘beyond’ the words, into/as through the words and what they actually consist of/exist as – it’s more about the ENERGY, the emotions/feelings that the words produce through our Minds; than the words in fact being practical living principles that assist/support us in our day-to-day living interactions/experiences.

Have a look: If we have defined Impatience and Patience in relation to “time” – and limited the definition of Impatience/Patience in relation to time as well as locking the words into/as emotional/feeling energy; when an external event happens in relation to Time, it will thus ‘trigger / activate’ Impatience, which will trigger/activate the emotional/negative energy that will then lead us to either build/accumulate the reaction and take it out on others/our world and have the energy discharge. Or we’ll ‘band aid’ the emotional reaction through jumping to the positive polarity / feeling energy of/as Patience and then in the Mind and Body ‘settle down for a moment’. But, the thing is: another occasion will manifest in our worlds where we will react to Time – either in the positive/negative as Patience/Impatience and the entire cycle will then repeat. We’re not seeing/realising/understanding how words have come to belong to the Mind – where within/behind words are emotional/feeling energy: instead of Self Awareness. Instead of the words being integrated into/as our Awareness into Physical Practical Living that in fact Produce/Create an experience/relationships that enrich ourselves/our lives and that of others – words have been integrated into/as the Mind/Consciousness and exist within a self-serving nature, as the emotions/feelings only produce a reaction within ourselves, and do not serve to benefit our life/living and relationship to others.

So, now we have to look at the following structure:

We have time as One Circle at the top – with two circles connected to the Initial Circle: the Circle on the left represents Impatience and the Circle on the right represents Patience. With the Impatience filled with negative energy and the Patience filled with positive energy – all tied to the definition/relationship of Time. So, in these relationships of words/energies in relationship to our external environment: every moment ‘Time’ is triggered within our worlds in relation to Patience/Impatience – out comes the energy-reactions, both of which only benefit ourselves and/or create consequence in our world in relationship to others.

So, what does it mean, then – to remove the emotional/feeling energy charges and integrate the words Impatience/Patience into/as Self-Aware Living?

This we’ll continue with in the next post