The Rise of Emotion and the Fall of Self

The Rise of Emotion and the Fall of Self

Quantum Time and Physical Space-Time Equilibrium (continued)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

I will continue more in the next post explaining / sharing the process of how emotional reactions / response-patterns change / transform to self-expression; and how this process of walking from the Quantum Time dimensions of Consciousness into and as the equilibrium of Space and Time in the Physical – assist and support with understanding what it means to Live Patience.

I have found that there is a hint of impatience existent – every time I accept and allow myself to go into an emotional reaction. Where I do not take a moment to breathe and slowly look at a moment / conversation with another, but IMMEDIATELY in a quantum moment activate any and every kind of thought / emotional reaction within me. Thus, we’re going to have a look at where and how within your day-to-day life – you can start practising the living of Patience in relation to yourself, a moment and another.

For this post, I would suggest a practical application process for yourself to observe how Impatience is actually existent in every and any moment you go into an emotional reaction (I’ll eventually get to the positive feeling, but most will be able to prominently relate to emotional reactions / energy experiences). Observe yourself in moments where you become emotional – whether anxiety, irritation, resistance, frustration, anger etc. What you’ll notice happens is that your solar plexus and chest area becomes tight, your upper-body becomes tense as this overwhelming energy rises up within you. It’s interesting how with emotional energy – because it is so intense / overwhelming, it creates this illusion of “rising” on an unconscious-level – which also contributes to why we sometimes use emotion in situations / conversations, it presents the illusion of self “rising to the occasion” / “having power to speak up / speak your mind”. Thus, this is another dimension in relation to emotion that I would suggest introspecting: the illusion that emotion presents to you in the mind and body as to having more ‘power’ / ‘strength’ to be able to take on the situation / person, like the emotional energy “backs you up” in a way; showing that you cannot stand alone, by yourself and your own words – but need emotional energy to ‘stand with you’. Additionally within this to see, realise and understand that it’s not about ‘speaking your MIND’ – speaking your mind, especially when in emotional reaction – is speaking reactions, it is then not you, your awareness speaking. (I will continue expanding on the difference between speaking your mind and speaking as self in posts to come)

So, with physically experiencing the emotion rising up within you and you rising with it further / deeper into the Mind – you will notice that you in that moment REALLY focus ONLY on how you feel, what you are thinking; so a complete separation manifests between you, the moment / situation in reality and then the other person. This then leads one to start ‘speaking your Mind’ and only perpetuates conflict / friction in your world / reality in relation to a situation / another person.

Therefore, for this post – what I would like you to observe for yourself are these two things:

ONE: how the physical body responds to the emotion coming up as it rises within you and TWO: how you internally only focus on your own thoughts and emotions in that moment, as though the thoughts and emotions are a lot more emphasized / standing out and clear  - really ‘highlighted’, so much so that you cannot take your attention off of it and it really captivates you and so captures you into/as the Mind, instead of being here with breath, yourself, the body and the moment in reality to be able to understand the situation and come up with a practical solution.

Why is it important to be able to observe this / become of aware of how we respond to thoughts and emotions and what is its relationship to Impatience? See: because Consciousness exist in ‘quantum time’ – it with emotion, for example, moves you SO FAST into the Mind and then brings up a lot of thoughts VERY fast, so you will also become aware of how fast and how many thoughts will come up in your Mind in the moment of an emotional reaction. This is to ensure you remain distracted from you, breath and the physical body – to not see the reality of the situation / moment / yourself and the other person – but keep on paying attention to your own thoughts and emotions. So, what happens within this – is: you come to believe in your own thoughts and reactions about a situation / person, instead of remaining calm and stable, moving in space-time breathing with the physical body and directly looking at the situation / person with awareness / commonsense and an outcome for a solution. It is really, really, really fascinating how one’s perspective of a situation / other person changes – with taking responsibility and forgiving your own thoughts and emotions, calming down and being stable and then instead looking at the situation, yourself and the other person with stability and clarity.

This is where Impatience plays a major role – we have not yet lived / applied the PATIENCE with OURSELVES, to not move so FAST and IMMEDIATE into the quantum time dimensions of emotional energy / consciousness, to just take a moment for ourselves, sort out our own thoughts / reactions and then look at the moment with such clarity and perspective.

One of the main things to understand when it comes to emotional reactions and then the thoughts / backchats that follows is that: whatever comes up in your mind – does not define the situation, nor the other person, but in fact reflects things to you that you have not directed / sorted out inside yourself. Therefore, before directing situations / people within it – take responsibility for yourself / your own mind, clear yourself and drop the veil of consciousness. Then, take a moment – that moment where you breathe and you’re sure you are clear and then take responsibility for the moment / the other person by LOOKING at how you are going to direct the situation / person into and as a practical solution.

In the next post, we’re going to have a look at how all the points come together, from Impatience to LIVING Patience with self, to how the quantum time dimensions of the mind and the space-time continuum of the physical come-together to assist and support in this process of looking at things / seeing direct; instead of shifting into impatience and so the quantum time of the Mind/Consciousness that manifest the necessary separation from yourself and physical reality to perpetuate consequence / compromise instead of bringing your world to solutions and direction.

My Relationship with Emotions (Part Two)

My Relationship with Emotions (Part Two)

Quantum Time and Physical Space-Time Equilibrium (continued)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

In the next post we’ll start with our relationship to emotional/feeling energy – start with seeing, realising and understanding how we’ve “fallen into a relationship” with emotional/feeling energy, without knowing that we can in fact decide, direct and establish who/how we are in relation to emotional/feeling energy of the Mind/Consciousness. Also, why it is important to in fact UNDERSTAND what emotional/feeling energy is and how we have consequentially been using/abusing it – simply because we have not taken the responsibility in/as our Self-Awareness for who we are and how/what we live within ourselves.

Having a look again at the moment you face the emotional experience of impatience, you can also practically do this for yourself – walk a day in your life / a week / a month and observe yourself when becoming impatient: what thoughts arise and how the emotion affects your physical body. Most importantly – observe yourself in the moment you DECIDE to become impatient.

Many who have recent memories of impatience, may not be able to relate to ‘the moment of Decision’ with becoming impatient…and you won’t, because our relationship to / with emotions, such as impatience, have been an ‘automatic response-pattern’ that we have programmed into our Consciousness from a decision made a LONG time ago, so long ago – you cannot even remember when you made the decision. It could have been done by observing how your parents respond to time / schedules / appointments and/or friends, or from watching a movie or reading a book. You can ‘play’ with this for yourself and see who you in your family / past and/or from where have you observed such a response-pattern in your life and accordingly made a decision through acceptance that “this is the way I am supposed to be / respond” and/or “this is the way things are”. From that moment, now a memory inside your mind and body – you have come to automatically respond to time / schedules / appointments and the unpredictable nature of space-time reality with impatience.

It is fascinating to walk the Mind Construct Process within the Desteni I Process Course, because herein – you learn how to walk through your own Mind to identify how memories have come to define you and so most of your automatic response / reaction patterns to your own Mind / Relationships and Life in general. Personally, I have found that this was one of the main things that contributed to experience resistance with walking Mind Constructs – walking through my Mind, my Memories: the fact that so much of who I had become, was not “me”, but a ‘patchwork’ / ‘tapestry’ of information / data and memories of what I copied / imitated from others and throughout my life accepted as “me” – never questioning, really, where so much of my thoughts / reactions and behaviours that I could see was compromising myself and my life was really coming from. So, in this – you really face the question “who am I”, “how am I” and “why am I”; which is something we tend to fear because we so desperately want to believe that we’re ‘unique’ / ‘individual’ / ‘special’…‘my own ME’; when in fact: you’re not and never have been. It’s only when you start introspecting the thoughts, reactions and the memories you accepted that shaped / formed your response-patterns / self-experience and then actually start changing your decision within ‘who am I, how am I and why am I’ that your potential / individual self expression emerge for the first time.

For example – having a look at the reaction of Impatience: this is something most do when it comes to the relationship with time and unpredictability in this reality; having similar thoughts and so a similar emotional response. Whereas, if you’d give yourself the opportunity to walk self-forgiveness in the moment when you find the thoughts and emotions that relate to impatience comes up, and in that moment set yourself free to decide who you are, how you are and why you are – herein you for the first time in fact give yourself the opportunity to DECIDE with awareness, and especially within the principle of what’s best for all. Because, when you’re reacting with Impatience – you in fact only think about yourself, how YOU feel / experience yourself that you then embody. Whereas, if you’d for a moment forgive the thoughts and emotions, breathe, decide to stabilize yourself and consider the reality of the moment, the appointments / time / schedule and others and their lives that are involved – you can approach the moment / situation with awareness, have access to more information and so from here decide on a plan / approach as a practical solution.

What you can consider looking at for yourself is: you know how, why and who you’re going to be if you accept / allow yourself to react in impatience as you’ve walked down this road inside your own mind many times before. However, if you’d give yourself this opportunity to release yourself from the automatic response-pattern and instead assess the moment, yourself and others practically, realistically within commonsense and stability – it is fascinating how surprising the entire moment and experience can be/become; even what you can learn about yourself.

I will continue more in the next post explaining / sharing the process of how emotional reactions / response-patterns change / transform to self-expression; and how this process of walking from the Quantum Time dimensions of Consciousness into and as the equilibrium of Space and Time in the Physical – assist and support with understanding what it means to Live Patience.

Quantum Time and Physical Space-Time Equilibrium (Part Three)

Quantum Time and Physical Space-Time Equilibrium (Part Three)

Who I am as Patience (continued)

We’ll continue in the next post with explaining the consequence the body experience the moment energy is introduced into and as it, how this has created our separation from the physical body, from living in space-time hereness – and so why/how we have not had access into and as the Living Word PATIENCE and the overall consequence this has created in who we are and how we live in our relationship to ourselves and others with not having/living REAL PATIENCE as a Living Word in this Physical Reality.

Now we get to the question: “How are we going to synchronize quantum time and physical space time for the two primary dimensions we exist within and as to support each other – manifesting quantum time and physical space-time into an equilibrium / co-existence?”  

What is clear with the interdimensional-physical research we do through the Portal is that: the Mind and the Body are not ‘co-existing’ – the Mind is dependent on the Body to resource emotional/feeling energy and the Body had come to compromise itself in conditioning its relationship to the Mind to survive as best possible within the consequential mind-body relationship. (Many interviews are available on EQAFE that explains in detail the consequential relationship of the Mind Consciousness System to the Physical body – the extent/degree to which emotional/feeling energy affect/influence the functioning of the physical body)

The common denominator within the relationship between the Mind and the Body: is SELF. The Mind-itself cannot ‘sort itself out’ nor can the Body-itself ‘sort itself out’ – we as our SELF-Awareness have to regulate our relationship to the Mind and so also with the Physical Body. It is understanding this Self-Mind-Body relationship that will assist and support with directing the Mind and the Body into a relationship of co-existence / equilibrium.

So, the first step is directing our relationship to energy – emotional (negative) and feeling (positive) energy, as we illustrated in the beginning of the process we have walked within “Who I am as Patience”; that – ‘beyond’ getting stuck in the emotional and feeling energy of the Mind/Consciousness: it gives one ‘access’ into the physical body’s hereness / movement / expression, which is a foundation within which ‘Self’ can be stable and constant within and as one’s Awareness. At the moment, our Awareness / ‘Self’ is primarily only channelled into the Mind/Consciousness and extensively distracted and preoccupied with only seeing / interacting with thoughts and energies for example – that we do not ‘see’ and are not ‘aware’ of what is here in reality and who we are / how we are in relation to it, but more specifically the realisation that we can CHANGE and DIRECT who we are and how we are in reality, by changing and directing who and how we are within the Mind.

At the moment – we have one building, the physical body. One classical orchestra playing within and as the building (physical body), which is the rhythm, pulse and movement of the space-time expression of the physical body. Then, we have several rock bands playing (representing the effect/influence of emotions and/or feelings on the physical body) in this one building (physical body) that is interfering with the natural rhythm, pulse and movement of the classical orchestra as the space-time expression of the physical body. So, one can place oneself in the shoes of a classical musician and an entire orchestra playing classical music while there are several rock bands playing at the same time.

Therefore, the process is to manifest a relationship between the space-time classical orchestra of the physical body and the quantum time rhythm of the Mind – which will essentially mean to ‘merge the sounds of the classical musical and the rock bands’ so that they compliment each other’s rhythms and sounds and so, essentially, create a “new ONE SOUND / RHYTHM” from a lot of different sounds / rhythms – a “new” mind and body orchestra, if you will.

This does not mean we’re going to align emotional / feeling energy to the physical body, in terms of merging the rock bands with the classical orchestra. Again, we bring your attention to the following sentence “the process is to manifest a relationship between the space-time classical orchestra of the physical body and the quantum time rhythm of the Mind”. What we are going to do is resource the INFRASTRUCTURE of the Mind, the quantum-time reality and align the infrastructure of the Mind with the physical body as the process of merging quantum-time within and as physical space and time so that the two realities assist and support each other. This means the following:

Look – the ‘problem’ we face with the “rock bands” as the energy (emotions and feelings) of the Mind Consciousness System is the nature and content of the SONGS that the rock bands produce, meaning – how it is that the INSTRUMENTS are being used. So the same with the Mind – the problem we face with the Mind is HOW WE USE it and the nature and content of what we produce within the Mind. So, what firstly needs to change is our relationship to the Mind, how we use its instruments / infrastructure and from there – re-align the relationship of the Mind as ourselves into and as the Physical Body. Again, we’re faced with the same ‘problem’: we have accepted and allowed ENERGY (emotions and feelings) to direct/produce who/how we are within the Mind – instead of our self-awareness / commonsense; and it has been this relationship between energy and the mind that has separated us from ourselves and our direct, equal and one relationship with the physical body.

In the next post, we will continue with how we’re going to change our relationship from Energy + Mind = consequential relationship with the physical body to SELF/Awareness + Mind = equal and one relationship with the physical body as the process of aligning quantum time and physical space-time into equilibrium within and as ourselves and so finally into and as the real living expression of/as Patience.

Patience as Self/Living Expression (Part Three)

Patience as Self/Living Expression (Part Three)

So, this ‘movement’ of the mind, the body and also physical reality is important to note as we continue in the next post with how self-movement with breath/physical movement will assist and support with the self/living expression understanding of Patience in one’s personal process and so eventually in other’s processes. To so not get caught up in Time in the Mind with reactions of Patience / Impatience, but become the self/living expression of Patience that will in fact empower oneself to become the directive principle of oneself and one’s world instead of a victim to Time and one’s reactions to/towards it.

If one have a look at how the Mind moves – it is erratic, chaotic and unpredictable when observing thoughts and emotions that we deal with on a moment-to-moment basis throughout the day. If one had not yet observed one’s thoughts and emotions (what generally goes on in the Mind throughout the day) – I would suggest do so. Taking a day and see for oneself how one can be from one moment to the next: how often one change based on what thoughts and reactions (emotions and feelings) gets activated within oneself. See, the mind ‘moves’ so fast – the human awareness does not realise that it is thoughts / reactions on various levels/dimensions of our consciousness that FIRST ACTIVATES and THEN one participate / change / act. (One can understand more about the relationship between awareness, consciousness and the physical body in the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series with seeing, realising and understanding for self how the Mind/Consciousness control our awareness).

Whereas with the Physical Body / this Physical Reality – movement is constant, stable and predictable; and within this movement there is an deep silence, yet an all-encompassing awareness of everything that constitutes the physical body / this physical reality if/as one would stand equal to and one with what is physical. With standing with one’s Awareness equal to and one with the Physical – one’s awareness becomes the directive principle, through decisions. Meaning, instead of one’s awareness always reacting to the Mind based on how the Mind automatically activates that then determines how one think / feel / act – the equation change to one’s awareness DIRECTING through first assessing the moment and everything/everyone within it in equality and oneness, making a decision with awareness and only then acting.

Now, there are two different realities at play here: the Mind Reality and the Physical Reality. The Mind Reality moves in ‘quantum time’ and the Physical Reality moves in space and time. The Mind Reality ‘quantum time movement’ is measured by energy and the Physical Reality space-time movement is measured by breath. Dependent on how much energy (emotions/feelings) you access/generate – depends on how fast / slow the Mind will move. Dependent on how slow / fast you breathe – depends on how slow / fast the general condition of the body moves. One can essentially liken the Mind’s movement as a lightning storm in the head-region of human beings and the Physical Body’s movement as a river-movement within itself and also within physical reality. So, one can imagine how the Lightning Storm of the Mind can ‘unsettle the waters’ in the Physical Body / this Physical Reality – which is what we do to ourselves most of the time, because our Awareness is participating / possessed in/as the Lightning Storm of the Mind instead of moving with and as the rivers of/as Physical space-time movement in physical reality.

This in itself is quite a fascinating point, because: we have our Awareness, Mind and Body. Now, this trinity exists in a ‘closed system’ as the physical body and we’re creating our relationship between the Mind and the Body with our Awareness – our acceptance and allowance of participating in and existing as the Mind in separation from the Physical. When one walk process and slow down with breath / physical movement – one will see for oneself how the thought comes up first, how the emotion comes up first that one’s awareness then ‘follow’ and ‘become’ and so live out the thought/emotion. With process, one can as the thought comes / as the emotion comes: already stop participation, stop oneself from automatically following’ the thought and emotion and CHANGE who / how one is in a moment. Therefore, because of this relationship of our awareness ‘following the Mind/pre-programmed Consciousness’ – we’re deliberately, in a way, moving into and as the lightning storms of the Mind/Consciousness, constantly and continuously ‘disturbing the waters of/as the physical body’ / ‘the stable substance of/as the physical body’. Everyone always ‘looking for / searching for peace, calm and stability’ – not seeing, realising and understanding that it cannot be found in the Mind / Consciousness ‘quantum time energy lightning storms’ – but only in/as equality and oneness with and as the physical body.  

We’ll in the next post continue with how exactly to be/become the living expression of/as Patience – with changing one’s relationship in moments from the quantum time movement of the Mind/Consciousness, to space and time movement of/as the Physical Body. How, from here – the self/living expression of Patience will emerge.