When I want to Sleep my problems away – yet my problems keep me Awake…

When I want to Sleep my problems away – yet my problems keep me Awake…

Then continue with point 2. – the second dimension I experienced contributing to sleepless and restless nights, which is when you have stressful / emotional thoughts and experiences within you creating the inner conflict of alertness and exhaustion; also how to assist and support yourself when facing such experiences within you.

Many use sleep as an escape mechanism…especially when it comes to having to wake up in the mornings and you really just don’t want to, because everything of you knows what is ahead when you open your eyes and walk into the day: having to deal with yourself, others and life. What I mean with having to deal with yourself: is the non-stop inner conflict you can be presented with within your thoughts and emotions, having to deal with your inner reality. This is most difficult at times when you don’t have the tools / guidance when it comes to directing your thoughts and emotions. I have personally found that: if my inner reality is in chaos / conflict – it makes it exceptionally difficult / challenging to deal with the unpredictable we walk into when it comes to everyday life, which creates a third dimension of conflict: the conflict between the inner and the outer.

1^st Dimension of conflict: Inner conflict

This is when you have things going on inside yourself in relation to yourself, others / life itself that keeps you occupied in your thoughts and emotions.

2^nd Dimension of conflict: Outer conflict

This happens as you walk your day and things happen / transpire in everyday life you didn’t expect which tends to ADD to the already existent inner conflict within you

3^rd Dimension of conflict:

This is when there’s a ‘clash’ of sorts between your inner reality and outer reality – where, as you’re dealing with things inside yourself, more things happen outside yourself with relationships / situations. So as you’re essentially walking pre-existent inner conflict within yourself, you’re also at the same time met with outer conflict with things happening in moments throughout your day. This is what makes it so the more challenging / difficult to direct your outer world, because your inner world is also not being directed. This leads to much stress and anxiety as you’re essentially living in chaos with accepting and allowing such a life within and without.

I realised that I can’t predict the outcome of each day. The only power I have is in MOMENTS throughout my day AS and WHEN things happen. However, I’ve realised that: as long as I have problems / issues inside myself I am not dealing with / directing it tends to disempower me in MOMENTS throughout my day, because then - instead of DIRECTING or solving conflicts / problems that I’m met with throughout my day, I tend to project / exert my own personal issues / problems / inner conflicts onto / towards things I walk into / experience in everyday life. Therefore, I cannot control the conflicts / problems I face in everyday life – but I can take response-ability (the ability to respond as becoming the directive principle) of my own mind, my own thoughts and emotions within me.

So, by taking my power in my relationship with my own mind – resolving the INNER conflicts I face / experience, I can so walk my everyday life experience in such a way where I can ensure that my own inner conflicts are not projected / exerted onto / towards the unexpected / unpredictable I may face in everyday life. Walking my everyday life experience with more stability and clarity within myself, empowering myself to in moments – rather than projecting/exerting emotions / reactions onto something / someone – assess the person/people and situations much better, to stand within the self empowered position of always finding  /creating solutions, rather than creating even more conflict / chaos.  

We don’t realise that this is what we do / accept / allow if we continue with inner conflict / chaos – we become / embody this chaos within and it start filtering through our words and actions, especially in moments where we should be standing to find solutions, we instead ADD to problems / conflict / chaos in everyday life. Therefore, with you assisting and supporting yourself to transform your relationship with inner conflict / chaos to sorting it out, dealing with things you’re going through and directing it – you embody such a nature / presence within and as yourself and it will equally start filtering into your outside world life experiences. Where, instead of adding to problems / conflicts, you will be able to stand in such a way so as to always direct it, find solutions, resolve matters.

In the next post I will continue with how these three dimensions of conflict contributes to sleepless, restless nights and the irony of wanting to use sleep as an escape mechanism…yet, you’ll find your worries, fears and problems follow you to sleep and tends to do the exact opposite by keeping you awake!

Who I am as Patience

From this Post within this Blog – I will post Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment Statements as I explore the current nature and so living condition(ing) of ourselves as words. This means: how it is that we define words in the mind and how this accordingly determines our nature / ‘who we are’ that we then live through our actions, which in turn creates ourselves and so our life/living experience.

What one will find within these posts is an exploration into the quantum-dimensions of Consciousness/the Mind and its relationship to the Physical Body. This means: seeing/realising/understanding the extent to which Consciousness in fact affect/influence the Physical Body and this particular relationship we’re going to explore through words.

Who I am as Patience

Writing: Investigating the Relationship to Patience and Impatience

Many reading the word Patience may not be able to relate to it as much as the word Impatience. However, even in the word Impatience exist the Solution through a simple shift in perception, through a simple shift of looking at the word differently as follows: I’mPatience / I am Patience. But what does it mean to be Patience, to live Patience?

I have in my personal process found definitive physical signs for when I become Impatient: lots of sighing, starting to shake my legs up and down, looking around a lot, heart-rate escalating, breathing becoming short and fast etc. It’s like Impatience becomes this entity wriggling inside your body yelling “move, move, move, move, move!!!” and you have no power to ‘calm it down’, so to speak. What I also noticed in addition to the physical-signs is that my Mind in such moments moves REALLY FAST, where the thoughts can speed through the Conscious Mind in a flash.

For oneself, I would suggest having a look at what happens when you become Impatient – but do a real-time self-experiment where: the moment a situation arrive that usually triggers Impatience, observe what happens to the body, how does the physical body respond/react to impatience? Then also observe how fast the thoughts move in the Mind – it’s like our entire internal-reality SPEEDS UP in contradiction to the slow, but sure/certain space-time movement of physical reality. Like a part of us within us wants to MOVE, but another part in the physical knows we have to STAY/WAIT and so we create this split within ourselves that accordingly create the reaction of ‘Impatience’ – this energetic surge within our Minds and our Physical Bodies as this split within ourselves is torn between WAITING and MOVING.

What I have also observed in such moments is the following: we usually move through the Mind in the Physical – meaning, we’re always busy with thoughts/thinking/reacting/imagining that we don’t realise how little we in fact move within the space-time continuum of physical reality. This shown with how little we are aware of our breath / breathing – where we leave that to the ‘physical dimension’ of our existence, automate it through the physical body and then most of the ‘time’: we’re automatically running in the quantum energy dimensions of our mind/consciousness; existing in two worlds ‘space time of physical reality’ and ‘quantum time of consciousness’. Where, such moment of ‘Impatience’ are actually moments where we come face-to-face with space and time, face-to-face with the movement of Physical Reality – but we’re not able to ‘handle it’, because of being used to the quantum time / fast-paced movement of our minds – thoughts/thinking/reacting/imagining that creates the illusion of everything happening ‘now, now, now’. Whereas, in physical reality: things move through sequences of events where one is dependent on others / other things to get things moving in the physical, but in the mind – we’re only dependent on our own thoughts/imaginations/reactions – that moves REALLY FAST.

The consequence of impatience, though – does not only extend to the fact that we individually experience it in our minds/bodies: we more often than not take out our ‘impatience-frustration’ on others and with that – don’t realise the effect the energy has on our physical bodies. How this one energy can change our heart-rate / breathing and physical tension/stress in moments. This has an impact on the general ‘health / condition’ of the physical body the more and more it’s exposed to such an energy over time.

In the next post, I will walk the Self Forgiveness process – opening up more dimensions of our relationship to Impatience, to see/realise/understand the difference between Patience as a “feeling” and what it would mean to in fact Live Patience in the physical. Where Patience and the living thereof – will initially only be a ‘stepping stone’ Living Word to assist/support oneself into physical space-time equality and oneness – that one’s awareness always moves within the reality that is real as the Physical, and not in separation as the illusionary reality which is the Mind/Consciousness quantum time dimensions/existence.